SadSmiley Posted August 29, 2014 Posted August 29, 2014 It was four years ago, but I cannot let go of the pain he brought me. (He apparently can forget better than I can.) It was four years ago when I decided never again was I to have anything to do with him. Why I opened up the lines-- maybe because the hardship I was having, that I felt like I can deal with difficult relationships. I'm faltering. His presence let alone in my social networking makes me anxious. It makes me somewhat sad too but I can't control what I feel. Lack of trust, insecurity... It has affected my relationship and reaction towards him (being cautious, at a distance, provoked when bringing up memories). He remembers it different than I did. Mine is painful and I could make a list. I can do as I did before and silently slip away. My fear is that he'll notice. But it's not like he's noticing me now...
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