jingle42 Posted August 25, 2014 Posted August 25, 2014 (edited) We dated for 7 years. I got with him right after his divorce, his kids were 3 and 5, my daughter was 4. I went through a lot with him in the beginning years, crazy ex wife, kids had a hard time - I went right into mommy mode. He lives about 30 minutes from me and my daughter. He lives in a off the beaten path place, 2 mile long driveway surrounded by trees, I live in a neighborhood. It was great for awhile but like in all relationships, things change. He lived in an area that was secluded and public schools were not the best. Everyone I knew said not to put my daughter in those schools - she is gifted and attends one of the top public schools in the area. Well that cause friction obviously, but I was ok with it, I knew eventually it would all work out. We did move in with them for a little less than a year, save some money and then were planning on moving out to a better neighborhood. At the same time, my parents moved back from NY. My father was sick, dying of cancer. So on top of being a single mom, girlfriend/lover, working mom, i had my parents to handle now. I was losing it. I decided to speed up my move because like I said he lived 30 minutes from my house and with my dad being sick, I thought it would be better to move closer. After me and my daughter moved out, we drifted apart. His older son plays baseball and it was an every weekend thing, my daughter was older and wanted to hang with her friends and not to go baseball every weekend. On top of all of this we work together. So it's now 7 years, my father passed away, work was super stressful and I was just at the point of losing it. 3 months later he breaks up with me in an email. Telling me that I have been pushing him away these past years and it's over. I was floored. For the past two years I had been dealing with my dad and to be honest he was my priority. I was crushed. So we did the whole no contact thing as much as we could while still being in the same office and in January, I made the mistake of asking him if he was sure about me moving on. He said no, so I kept trying to talk to him, get him to at least sit down and see if we could work anything out. Nothing. Then around February I made the mistake of sleeping with him, meeting him in his car. I know really, I'm 42...I knew better but I thought...he even asked me for help planning some baseball getaway thing for his kid-he said maybe by then we will be back together. So I fell for it, hook line and sinker. Last Monday, my daughter - who by the way he walked away from and never said goodbye too - found his picture on facebook, I never get on the thing, then she found his girlfriend. This was the same woman who texted me in November (we broke up in October) and told me he had moved on and to stop texting him. It was still fresh, I was hurting, I was trying to get him to talk to me. He is still with her and she almost went on vacation with him, the one I helped him with. This whole time of him saying he needs to get his head straight, I know you need answers, I just need to figure things out, I don't want to say goodbye, I still have hope we will be together. This whole time he is sleeping and dating another woman. Yes, I am a glutten for puishment and asked him if he was sleeping with her - his answer was "I think you know the answer". I know I have done this to myself but I was not ready to give up on 7 years. Obviously he is. He has moved on - which I think hurts more because I can't even think of kissing someone elss and he is sleeping with her. I feel more stupid now than when she texted me. All I want to do is to get over this. I really do, my heart aches but I wouldn't take him back now if he came back crawling. My head knows what to do but my heart doesn't. Funny thing is this whole time I have been trying to get him to talk to me and work things out, I figured sex kept that alive between us, wrong wrong wrong. I'm a walking cliche. I'm thinking the best move for me is to quit my job and move on and never look back but that is easier said than done! I've been at my job for 15 years, he isn't going anywhere - what can I do? He's pretty serious with her. How can he just jump into something else? Confused, hurt, needing to move on............. Any words of wisdom other than I AM AN IDIOT!!!!?? Edited August 25, 2014 by a LoveShack.org Moderator
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