Just Shannon Posted August 22, 2014 Posted August 22, 2014 I've been with the man I love for 12 years and married to him for 5 of those. He hasn't felt the same about me and has expressed it for a while now. I feel very lost. I revolved my whole world around him, our house, our family. We still live together and are legally married but we are living separate lives. I am in no way ready to move on. I just started leaving the house again and going to some events on my own. I started writing again and when I'm not working I started my own website and decided to blog some stuff that I'm going thru with some videos. I found out that I love editing video!!! ...I suppose, anything to keep myself busy and from thinking about all that is most likely lost. We still live together, eat meals, sleep, watch movies, go for walks.... do that stuff together. He says he has to figure out what he wants with his life... midlife crisis??? I don't know. I don't want to give up on us but guess I have no choice. If it's meant to be he'll realize it and tell me so I guess. Every day is just hard though.... I mainly feel as though I've lost my best friend. Anyway... what I'm trying to do now is just work and get this website going and try to save up enuf so I can begin to rebuild my life. I am sorry for all of those out there who's hearts have been shattered. It's a pain like no other. My first video I just edited and put up is about my first Rock and Roll adventure all by myself. It was Rock USA... I packed up my car and went on my own all by myself with like 40 bucks after everything else was paid for and camped in a tent and drowned my sorrows in PBRs. HOWever... I did see a lot of great bands... but being alone I was a target for every weirdo or meanie there. If you wanna forget about your own problems for a bit and come watch mine... check it out. https://www.connectpal.com/just-shannon
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