countryrider13 Posted August 21, 2014 Posted August 21, 2014 I've almost left my fiancé a couple times cause of past issues. Now I deal with lack of trust. While a fear is still there of a reacurrance (he was on dating sites giving out his number to women) I'm trying to get over what was, but it's so hard. And lately he's made me feel down. Granted he was sick and didn't feel good, I asked to borrow $20 he pulled out $100 I jokingly took it and said yeah now I've got $100. His remark was I don't love her enough to give her $100. I was instantly pissed since I spent $5,000 early in the year to buy him a vehicle to drive ( which is in my name only) he also makes comments that hurts my feelings regarding weight. I'm a plus size but still active in bike riding and hiking. I tell him I'm uncomfortable with my size but he still makes remarks on fat people, and he'd divorce me if I was 500lbs. Every time I initiate sex he normally turns me down, but when he's in the mood it's like he expects it. When I asked why he turns me down he says he knows he does but doesn't have a reason why....seems shady to me. And when I was blunt and told him I don't feel comfortable in my own skin, he at first got mad....once I started crying is when he softened his voice and held my hand to tell me he loves me no matter what. I check his phone from time to time to see if he's been on any sites...which he knows, and today he texted me as he got off work and when he got home his phone was torn apart and battery was seperated. I immediately got suspicious, and woke him up to ask about it....but he got pissed that I woke him up. Wether he realizes it or not he hurts my feelings. I feel like he's not very observant as to how he says things around me. When he makes me upset he's right there to comfort me and tell me how much he loves me, he never wants to leave me and wants to get married. But why be so insensitive on things so often knowing I've expressed my concerns to him? Why work so hard to keep. Me if he's careless on some of his actions? Small things are adding up to make me unhappy. I want happiness, honesty, no trust issues, and to be treated with respect. I know the world is full of beautiful women but I don't want to feel like he's blankly googling at other women.... Part of my problem is that I'm in a situation where I only have my moms support on things. No other family except dad who hates me. So I'm down anyways feeling alone in this world. I know this was a rant
PegNosePete Posted August 21, 2014 Posted August 21, 2014 You need to rephrase your question. Why is it so hard to leave? No. Ask yourself... Why on earth would you want to stay with someone like that? 1
ktya Posted August 21, 2014 Posted August 21, 2014 Do what I did. Lose the weight, make yourself look good. It will either make him appreciate you more, or make it easier to find a new boyfriend if you leave. Start with calorie-count.com It works. I lost 90 Lbs in 6 months and it doesnt cost you a dime.
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