unrequitedlove11 Posted August 17, 2014 Posted August 17, 2014 (edited) I recently realized that I've fallen deep into depression again... I've tried to avoid going back into this dark place for the past 6 years and it's seems more painful than before... I'm still hurting from my ex leading me on for 3 years , moving away and having to find about his marriage through social media... I'm more stressed and disappointed because of my new job and not being able to go back to school this semester... All I do is hold **** in because I feel like people look at my problems as minuscule . In June I found out my great grandma has bone cancer and dementia... She helped raise me along with my grandma and aunts back home , so the thought of losing her gets to me . She also told us that her brother died of bone cancer... Then in July I found out my aunt ( my moms oldest sister ) has bone cancer . My mom has now made my aunt her priority . I understand that's her sister and this is life changing but what about your own children ? My mom took off work to take my aunt out of town for her surgeries and ended up having to stay longer than expected . My mom is my transportation to work every morning . I had to catch a cab almost the entire weeks she was not here because I don't have anyone else to call . I wasted $200 when I'm trying to save for my car . I work 40 hours a week , I ONLY depend on my mom for a ride to work and shelter ; my mom hasn't put food in the house in some months (can't buy groceries or my sister will eat up my food without consequence) but she can give my aunt $40 just because . She paid for them to get their feet done before her first surgery but when I offered to get hers done for her birthday last year and offer when I go get mine done , she never wanted to go . I feel like everything my mom is doing , my aunt wouldn't do for her . It's unfair that you can be there for someone else but not your own child . Our relationship has come along way since I was in that dark place but now it's gone sour again... I feel like I receive backlash for her taking on more than she can handle being that she works 2 jobs also. I have compromised my life and way of living for my aunt and her family since I moved here . My mom has practically been taking care of her for the past 6 years including being her enabler financially when it came to her alcohol / drug abuse . I don't have other family down here , I can't depend on the only person I can depend on and my aunt has ALWAYS depended on my mom when she has 3 adult kids and a boyfriend who she now lives with . Edited August 17, 2014 by unrequitedlove11
Reels Posted August 17, 2014 Posted August 17, 2014 It seems to me like you are taking things too seriously, you should give some time.
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