Jadedbyluv Posted August 10, 2014 Posted August 10, 2014 I've posted in the past about a past relationship that tore me down. I was at a very low place in my life. My self esteem was non-existent, and my self-worth destroyed. Over the last 4 years, I've slowly gained control over my life again. I sought therapy and I still see my therapist when I feel like I may be back pedaling. A lot of positive things have happened in my life in the last few years. The one thing I never seem to get right is dating. I am still a bit jaded. Even after my ex, I've been burnt. But I've learned from those experiences and how to make better choices for myself. That being said, I honestly thought I finally met a man who was different. He came and swept me off my feet. It was a whirlwind. And it basically ended almost as fast as it started. I developed feelings for this guy fairly fast which is not like me. I opened up to him and trusted him. I told him things I've never shared with anybody because I truly trusted him. He disappeared after he told me he loved me without even saying good bye. You take a risk in love when you open up to someone. And I get that. I spent so long putting up wall after wall. I was slowly taking them down with this man and for him to just disappear hurts all the more. Trust isn't something I easily give and he betrayed my trust. I don't want to be jaded anymore but it is so hard. I know he did me a favor in the long run. It's another hard lesson learned but it is a painful lesson. It just hurts knowing he is the first guy I've been able to trust in years. When I finally put myself out there again, I get hurt. My heart hurts.
preraph Posted August 11, 2014 Posted August 11, 2014 (edited) Well, sounds like unfortunately he was all bark and no bite. Let me liken him to my childhood chihuahua, Tooties. Tooties would see a bunny in the horse pasture and go tearing after it giving it all she had. All went well until one day, the bunny just turned around and sat and looked at her. Tooties screeched to a halt, did a 180, and fled back to the house as fast as her little feet could carry her. It's another case of be careful what you want because you just might get it. That guy was either married or something OR just pulled out all the stops playing games to get you, never expecting to succeed. All men are not practicing getting the girl. Some really one her. Edited August 11, 2014 by preraph
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