My story of heartbreak and betrayal

[polarissucks01]

So my girlfriend and I have been together since she was in highschool. We were together only 10 days short of 5 years. Shes 19 and I am 22. We were each others everything. We didnt have many friends, but we always had one another. Her and I had our share of ups and downs but we didnt break up for a single day. In January of 2013 she was in a car accident and had not worked a day since. I paid for most everything since she was unemployed. She just did not seem interested in getting a job, she tried a little but did not try very hard. Her mother( whom was not a very nice person, narcissistic and thought she was better than everyone else) also did not work since a very young age. My girlfriend and I still had a great time, but I feel she must have gotten bored being at home by herself while I was at work all day. In April of 2014 she started to volunteer at a local animal shelter. She met a guy there and he showed her attention. I read a facebook message from him to her one day and it was the usual stuff like he wanted to show her his nice truck, and just he was flirting with her. She did not seem to take the bait but continued to talk. Then in the middle of may 2014 I caught her and him hugging one another at the animal shelter. She told me that she just loved to have a new friend and that he had tried to kiss her but she pulled away. After this I told her that she should maybe go to her parents for a few days as I was upset. She begged me to stay and said she would never do it again. For a week or two she stayed away from the animal shelter and thought she wasnt contacting this guy. Prior to catching them hugging we had just bought new furniture and she wanted to make our apartment look nice, she obviously planned to stick around. Anyway, early june she started talking about wanting to see a counselor by herself and needing a break. I could tell something was up as she had started to miss my calls from work in the evening. Then one day a girl I work with asked me whos grey truck was at my apartment when I left for work one morning ( he had a grey truck) I confronted her about it, and that night she left to stay with a friend who I later found out was him and his mothers place. She left me to go live with a guy she barely knew and now lives with him and his family in their basement. She moved while i was at work. A friend called me at work and told me she was moving out. This guy was there helping her move all her stuff out. I had a hard time letting go, as she told me everything was my fault. I should have tried harder, I should have done more. I should have listened. I know I am not perfect, but I loved her with all my heart and I feel that I did a good job of being her man. I had her on facebook until she blocked me from seeing her stuff and a friend of mine showed me that she put that she was in a relationship with him since May, we lived together until almost july. I just cant believe that someone who only a month prior called me their everything, could lie to my face and tell me that I failed them, let me sit alone and cry every night by mrself when she really was cheating. I saw her a few times after our breakup. I could still tell she loved me from her eyes, the way she hugged me. I kissed her and she let me kiss her. But after I kissed her, we havnt talked because I think she knows she isnt supposed to have feelings for me. I said some mean things when I found out she had cheated, no threats, but I was angry because she let me hurt so bad. I miss her like crazy and I am trying to get over her. Its just terrible how one day I was her everything and today she is sleeping with a guy and loves someone she barely knows. People tell me she will come crawling back because I am a great guy ( I really was good to her) but that I am better off without her as she just got bored and used any excuse she could to make her cheating feel easier. I can not see her getting along with this guys mother very long as she is the type of person who cant stifle her opinions, shes gotta say them no matter how negative. She just moved on so quickly. I knew everything about her, I was her best friend and I have been replaced so quickly and easily. My biggest things is I promised her I would never give up on her, I would love her forever and I planned to do that. Even though she is the one that wants me to let go, it still feels wrong to just give up and move on. I feel that she may need me someday and if i'm not there I will fail her.

thanks,

Edited August 9, 2014 by polarissucks01