nightowl1 Posted August 4, 2014 Posted August 4, 2014 Me and my ex broke up 2 weeks ago. It has been a nightmare process. I have been lovesick from day one. Stomach pains, extreme loss in apatite and going to work seems like a mission. The only thing that takes away the pain is hanging out with my friends but I can't do that 24/7 I'm defiantly doing better than I was 2 weeks ago but its still hard. I try my best to not contact or read her social media. I constantly have to be blocking her on different things. First it was snapchat and messaging where she would try to pass along casual conversation. I would fall into the trap of wanting to talk to her, only to regret it later. I've gone out with my friends, gotten with other girls but nothing takes away the feeling of wanting to still be with her. Most of me knows I shouldn't be with her but I know that if she came and told me that she wanted me back I would fall right into it. Since she last contacted me, it was 3 days ago. I was doing much better until I woke up to 20 messages from her, from a random number she got from an app on her phone. I had let my friend stay at my place with this girl for the weekend while I was out of town, but apparently she hated this girl. So my friend posted a picture on Instagram and she found out about her staying at my place. She went crazy on me, saying how could I do this to her when I knew she hated her (I had no idea they even knew each other). She then said how could you let this girl sleep in our bed and eat off our plates. Somehow my ex thinks I did this to hurt her. What really got me was when she said that this ruined any chance of us getting back together, that she was actually considering it up until this. I know I shouldn't get back but part of me was torn that I felt like I ruined this again. We had a great relationship, she just fell out of love with me. I know her breaking up with me is enough reason not to get back but I can't control the part of me that wants her back. I've known her for a long time and know how she is with her Boyfriends, (I know this should have been a warning sign) but she does this thing where she breaks up, realizes she messed up and then trys to come back. Sometimes its a week, sometimes its a month. My question is, what can I do to make sure I don't take her back if she comes back apologizing and wants me back. Its easier said than done because I can tell myself all I want that shes terrible for me and that someone that loved me wouldn't have done this to me and put me through all this pain but I know that I'm so love sick that the second she asked to come back I would agree.
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