Have you ever wanted someone who was wrong for you in every way?

[music_and_poetry]

Wanted to post something because I am struggling with something that is coming more and more into light with each passing day.

 

Have you ever missed/wanted someone who was just awful for you in every way?

 

Last night I went on a really awesome date with another guy and it got me thinking... I don't understand why I still miss my ex. The majority of the emotions I associate with him are frustration, anger, and disappointment.

 

In fact, I am well aware that he was disappointing me all along. Everything was about him. I just kept hoping he'd treat me better. He never did. Heck he didn't even celebrate my birthday. Didn't lift one finger. And then he left and blamed me in his exit speech. I do know I deserve better than this but I still find myself thinking about him all the time wondering if he even misses me.

 

Anyone else experiencing this?

[hoping2heal]

Aaaah well hmm...

 

I had strong feelings for someone who was wrong for me, not just wrong for me but a downright jerkoff. He wasn't always that way of course! Extremely charismatic and charming guy though, which is how he pulled my initial interest. Within a few months the "image" began to fade and this ego inflated, selfish, butthole emerged. I still liked him..longer than I should have for the same reasons. Because I hoped things would improve. They didn't.

 

I was super, super, super hurt but... I actually got over it pretty quickly too. I mean he had become such a major a-hole that it was hard to glorify him in any light and I just realized I dodged a bullet.

 

In hindsight it's like "ewwwwww what was I thinking" :lmao: