5 years and it's over and I'm dealing bad, tell me it gets easier. xx

[Staceyga87]

Me & him was together 5 years! He always drunk a lot and done coke socially! He turned 30 and suddenly went into depression! He would go away and not contact me and stay out for nights binging and I would wake up at 4am worried sick! I had enough in the end and walked out and left our flat we shared, after I left he tried, he would take me out, we would have good time and have it all out But the weekends came and he would spend two nights away with his phone off!! He even surprised me out in Tenerife for 48 hours a few weeks back and we were so happy and he made such an effort with my parents! But then he came back and would go on his binging again! He broke my hear 100 times in 5 months by promising me everything and then leaving me!

On Saturday, we talked, for 5 hours, he said he was going to let me go because he couldn't keep hurting me! He said he hates the person he is so how can he love me! He said he doesn't know what is going on in his head, said he was in love with me but can't keep making me unhappy! He cried his heart out, for hours! He said he doesn't want anyone else!

I was his first seriously relationship and first love!! He is a mans man and loves going out with the boys! He is a hard worker and works 6 days a week ... 12 hours a day!

I love him and he loves me so why did he have to let me go! Throw 5 years away!

He has hurt me so much yet I can't handle it's over!

Do u think he will regret it?

All his family and friends love me and everyone said how good a couple we are!

After I left yest he text his friend who is our mutual friend if he done the right thing in letting me go!

I'm scared to hold on to hope we might get back together but it's all I want yet he hurt me so much!

The thought of him with someone else is making me feel sick too! I can't get it out of my head but he is free and single to do what he wants!

I just want to the tears to stop and to see the light at the end of the tunnel!

[Philosoraptor]

He's a mans man? Sounds like he's a little boy without his priorities straight. What kind of 30 year "man" is constantly drunk and binging... and who in the world does coke "socially"?

 

I'm sorry but this is the best thing for you. Take the time and heal up, get away from this person as he is not good for you. He will continue to live a train wreck lifestyle. If you want to have any true happiness you will take care of yourself and heal, so that one day you can find the life you truly want to live.