He lost my trust, I ended things - but I can't get over him??? >.<!

[Ladiixmk]

Has this ever happened to anyone else?? It's the most frustrating thing in the world.

 

I met this guy in October of 2012. Things were going by really great. But then after winter break he started to act differently, and then my friend caught him out with another girl. We had a talk and I forgave him, but then a month later he stands me up again, and my friend sees him out with the same girl, so I deleted his number and deleted him off of social media. I didn't talk to him for about 2 months, until his birthday came when I decided to say happy birthday. Two weeks later he asks to have a talk, we do and the talk wasn't that great... I told him the issue and he didn't even address it, just changed the subject.

Over the summer he'd keep hitting me up, but I would try to stay my distance and keep busy, but I still wasn't fully over him.

Move on to Fall semester of last year, he comes back into my life saying he's changed and he wants a relationship now. I say not this semester because I'm taking hard classes, plus we need to patch things up. Regardless we still went out on dates and stuff, but something didn't feel right... like one second he would make a date but then cancel out last minute, and another second he's helping me with my Chemistry homework. Plus I had serious trust issues. Then randomly at the end of December he says he needs a "break" (mind you we weren't even committed) because "his grades weren't looking well and he was having family issues and he needed to think things through". My dance performance was around this time as well, which he skipped out on too. At that point, I had gotten really stressed out b/c I thought I got played again.

The break was supposed to only last until the end of finals, but it only lasted until the end of winter break (so for a month). We come back from break, and he says that he realizes that he doesn't really "know" me, like he feels as though I'm a stranger to him because I don't open up to him. I told him maybe it's because I don't trust him as well due to our past. He said he wants to work on that on the upcoming semester.

But that didn't last too long, since literally every day the thought that he was playing me kept crossing my mind. So I ended things at the end of February, saying we should move on and see other people. He says he can't help me from feeling that way and he figured I was feeling some type of way, and maybe we can try again in the future.

 

Now, ever since then, we still keep in contact. He's the one who would first contact me though. He was the first person to wish me a happy birthday (I didn't even tell him when my birthday was, so I was surprised that he remembered), and at events he would come up to me to say hi. He even re-followed me on Twitter (I was the one who deleted him), and also my close friends on Instagram.

And this summer, now he's doing the same thing he did to me last year - randomly hitting me up to see how I'm doing and telling me stuff about his life. But he's also randomly snap chatting me.

So I haven't been on snapchat for over a week, and I decided to go on today, and I realized he made a snapchat story which he never does. And it's a picture of this random girl that I guess he was with some emojis... so I'm guessing he's "talking" to her now.

 

I don't know why, but this really kept me up at night lol. For some damn reason, I can't get over this boy . I alwaysss try to keep my distance and to stay busy, but he'll randomly pop up in my mind. I keep thinking about the "what ifs" and I keep picturing this mental image of him not being an a-hole and being more open... but obviously he is an a-hole. I know he's not good for me and I deserve way better. Tons of guys have come up to me, asked me for my number or to go on a date, but I can't really bring myself to do it... How do I get over him?? I need some tips, some advice, some slap-in-the-faces lol...

[Ladiixmk]

Oh yeah if it helps, we're both 20 years old, attending the same college.