brockjohnson Posted July 27, 2014 Posted July 27, 2014 So, this is kind of a long story, but... I'm 24, she's 22. We were 18 and 16 when we met. She is absolutely adorable. Light brown hair- almost blind with green eyes. Instantly became good friends. She was dating someone else at the time. I didn't know until much later, but she grew up to a hard life. Her parents were alcoholics and meth addicts. She spent a lot of time taking care of her younger brother because her parents would just dissappear all the time. She's told me about many messed up situations she's been through. Fast forward a couple years after we've met and we've remained really really close and good friends. A LOT of people thought we were dating or should. She got unto drugs, running from all of the abuse and abandonment growing up, and went from pot to all of the hard ones and got hooked on heroin. She hung out with sketchy dudes and started robbing houses. Ialways liked her and would come around every once in a while to trying and talk her into getting clean. She finally opened up to me and told me she loved me and she didn't want to die and needed help and all sorts of stuff. We made some plans and she was surprisingly preparing to follow through, but was arrested the next day for a whole bunch of crimes. 40 felony charges to be exact. Her friends threw her under the bus and pinned a LOT if crap on her. The judge saw through all of it and gave her only 2 charges and 4 years in prison. She currently half way done serving her sentence. I have gone and visited her every single weekend she's been locked up. She made me agree not to wait for her. I've only hooked up with one girl since, and I have no guilt about it but I just didn't really want to. I want her. Anyways six months into her sentence she told me she became a lesbian, which I thought was really just her getting lonely in jail. She always seemed like she was Mabry a little bi-curious, but I don't think she's really a lesbian. I went and visited her today, and she told me that when she gets out she's going to go marry some dude she knows from way back in the day and move to the other side of the country with him. He gone to visit her 6 times and she calls him a lot. They've never dated. I'm not sure what to make of it. She seemed pretty serious about it. But it just sounds ridiculous. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm pretty sure she's still just all lost and confused I n prison. She goes from mood to mood about every month. I m just lost. What do I do from here? Any advice or help?
thekid36 Posted July 27, 2014 Posted July 27, 2014 So, this is kind of a long story, but... I'm 24, she's 22. We were 18 and 16 when we met. She is absolutely adorable. Light brown hair- almost blind with green eyes. Instantly became good friends. She was dating someone else at the time. I didn't know until much later, but she grew up to a hard life. Her parents were alcoholics and meth addicts. She spent a lot of time taking care of her younger brother because her parents would just dissappear all the time. She's told me about many messed up situations she's been through. Fast forward a couple years after we've met and we've remained really really close and good friends. A LOT of people thought we were dating or should. She got unto drugs, running from all of the abuse and abandonment growing up, and went from pot to all of the hard ones and got hooked on heroin. She hung out with sketchy dudes and started robbing houses. Ialways liked her and would come around every once in a while to trying and talk her into getting clean. She finally opened up to me and told me she loved me and she didn't want to die and needed help and all sorts of stuff. We made some plans and she was surprisingly preparing to follow through, but was arrested the next day for a whole bunch of crimes. 40 felony charges to be exact. Her friends threw her under the bus and pinned a LOT if crap on her. The judge saw through all of it and gave her only 2 charges and 4 years in prison. She currently half way done serving her sentence. I have gone and visited her every single weekend she's been locked up. She made me agree not to wait for her. I've only hooked up with one girl since, and I have no guilt about it but I just didn't really want to. I want her. Anyways six months into her sentence she told me she became a lesbian, which I thought was really just her getting lonely in jail. She always seemed like she was Mabry a little bi-curious, but I don't think she's really a lesbian. I went and visited her today, and she told me that when she gets out she's going to go marry some dude she knows from way back in the day and move to the other side of the country with him. He gone to visit her 6 times and she calls him a lot. They've never dated. I'm not sure what to make of it. She seemed pretty serious about it. But it just sounds ridiculous. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm pretty sure she's still just all lost and confused I n prison. She goes from mood to mood about every month. I m just lost. What do I do from here? Any advice or help? This is not an easy situation to asses at all. So much that is going on here to be honest. First, it sounds as if she has had a very hard life up to this point. Such a shame that she was behind the eight-ball right from the start as a result of her sketchy parents. There definitely must be some fear of abandonment going on. Sad that she got caught up with the wrong crowd. She must have felt some sense of belonging. The thing is that shady characters tend to break loyal ties when push comes to shove. Seems as if she found this out the hard way. Even despite any of that, we all need to take responsibility for our own happiness. Sounds as if she is still being effected by her past. This is perhaps why she has been so confused since being behind bars. Being without freedom for a period of time cannot help but effect you. She has no clue what she really wants and this is being suggested by her recent quick reactions. This woman is trying desperately to find any sense of comfort. Which makes being with her at this point rather dangerous. My best advice would be to think of your friendship above all else. She is in no condition to be within a healthy relationship at this point. You cannot help but care for her. Yet, you also need to try protecting your own self as well.
Assasda Posted July 27, 2014 Posted July 27, 2014 After reading this, I thought you were trolling for a while. But then I think you seem so desperate that it might be true. Well when she gets out you should be her therapist and her white knight and help her with everything that she's going though... she's just a confused innocent little lamb. Your story reminds me of Forrest Gump. You should see that movie 1
Author brockjohnson Posted July 28, 2014 Author Posted July 28, 2014 Thank you Thekid36. Yeah I have to take a step back. And I mean back, but not out. There's years of history to all this, and I tried to make my post as short as possible. Assasda, thank you for your response too. I hope you have a many more blessed years of mediocre attempts at cruel humor and internet anonymity.
deathandtaxes Posted July 28, 2014 Posted July 28, 2014 Follow the river Follow the gulls follow the children follow their smiles
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