HeartbrokenNewbie Posted July 21, 2014 Posted July 21, 2014 This time last year: I couldnt sleep I couldnt eat I was numb I paced I couldnt be at home but when out I wanted to be home I would wake up in the morning filled with despair I wanted nothing more than for him to come home I got put on tablets I almost begged, I harrassed him with messages I screamed, shouted, cried A year later I had 10 hours sleep last night Im having a fry up shortly I feel great I have started my own business I love being at home and being out I cant remember the last time i cried I have seen pictures of my ex and the only word that springs to mind is "lardy" lol I look pretty good even if I do say so myself IM HAPPY ON MY OWN! I see why we broke up and I am glad! DONT ever give up because one day you will look back and it will all make sense... do I have any regrets? YES - that I wasted nearly a year pining over him a year I will never get back , I wouldnt have him back if you paid me! I never thought I would make it to this place but I did and you will too xx 7
Author HeartbrokenNewbie Posted July 21, 2014 Author Posted July 21, 2014 Oh would you believe it, the one year anniversary and Im over it and would never go back and old lardy has celebrated by unblocking me on FB... lol x
erklat Posted July 21, 2014 Posted July 21, 2014 Oh would you believe it, the one year anniversary and Im over it and would never go back and old lardy has celebrated by unblocking me on FB... lol x He unblocked you on Facebook today?
Author HeartbrokenNewbie Posted July 21, 2014 Author Posted July 21, 2014 He unblocked you on Facebook today? Yes he has x
Author HeartbrokenNewbie Posted July 21, 2014 Author Posted July 21, 2014 I have a friend who I message pretty much daily with the same first 3 letters and he always came up under him but hasnt since the day he blocked me and today he did x
erklat Posted July 21, 2014 Posted July 21, 2014 I have a friend who I message pretty much daily with the same first 3 letters and he always came up under him but hasnt since the day he blocked me and today he did x It will be a year for me soon. It is awsom when you look in the rear view mirror and see a long way you came. Per aspera ad astra. 1
STM206 Posted July 21, 2014 Posted July 21, 2014 Oh my, I remember the "wanting to leave the house yet wanting to be at home when I was out" feeling. I see some similar qualities in what you've said within myself. I look forward to coming here at the one year mark and sharing my then and now experiences. Posts like these make me happy to read. Ps; Lol at the ex unblocking you, perfect timing huh?
Author HeartbrokenNewbie Posted July 22, 2014 Author Posted July 22, 2014 Oh my, I remember the "wanting to leave the house yet wanting to be at home when I was out" feeling. I see some similar qualities in what you've said within myself. I look forward to coming here at the one year mark and sharing my then and now experiences. Posts like these make me happy to read. Ps; Lol at the ex unblocking you, perfect timing huh? I know! Lol I wish I knew why but only out of curiousity! x must have been thinking about me tho.. he best not try anything it's too late! x
Author HeartbrokenNewbie Posted July 24, 2014 Author Posted July 24, 2014 I cant even believe I am asking this when I have just passed the 1 year mark and actually thought I was completely over it and could see how far I have come etc etc and he goes and unblocks me on FB on the one year anniversary of us splitting up... it was a hasty BU after a big row and made worse by him meeting someone else within 3 months (we were sposed to get married). We have not seen each other to this day. Him unblocking me has sent my mind into overdrive it didnt at first but now its building, I know FB means nothing and I know everyone will say it doesnt mean anything but surely it must do as it takes effort to unblock someone and to be honest as he is still with his GF I cannot imagine I would be too happy to find out my BF had unblocked his ex (she prob witnessed a lot of our arguments when they first got together) I really dont want him back but this feels like its throwing up feelings again and I cant make head nor tail.. he is an a*se for doing this he must know I would see that he had unblocked me. Im not going to react to it, Im not blocking him as that will just show Im bothered but decided to come here to vent instead, why do they raise their ugly heads just as you make it to the other side! Ive felt sad allday and I just want to know why he has done that :-( x
Author HeartbrokenNewbie Posted July 24, 2014 Author Posted July 24, 2014 No that will just show that I noticed & reacted.. I wouldn't give him the pleasure just want to work out why he would do it x
marcjb Posted July 24, 2014 Posted July 24, 2014 Who cares? Do it for yourself unless you would be ok with him showing up in your feed from mutual friends.
loversquarrel Posted July 24, 2014 Posted July 24, 2014 It's been a year and it does bother you... so block him, who cares what he thinks. It's about making you feel better, not one-upsmanship.
Author HeartbrokenNewbie Posted July 24, 2014 Author Posted July 24, 2014 I am not giving him the satisfaction of seeing I still have feelings which I didnt think I did until this happened and now its built up in my head... Im not playing any games or one upmanship I just wanted to gain an understanding of why.. thats all x
loversquarrel Posted July 24, 2014 Posted July 24, 2014 Yes but not giving him the satisfaction?? It does seem like trying to put on a facade. You'll have to ask him why, we can't read his mind.
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