todreaminblue Posted August 12, 2014 Posted August 12, 2014 i would have to say the break up that really affected me here woudlnt i so i will who i was before was a bit fo a shell that zombied around....i was deb, debbie deborah those core three(so i was a child at heart ....a soldier always and a woman) and then a quite a few visitors who helped me cope....dont know their names...electric shock killed some of them off so i could survive being electrocuted....some of them survived..... who am i after still me deb debbie deborah and i answer to all..doesnt matter what i do where i go who i meet,what i look like muscly slim fat overweight i am still me ..... what happens from now to eternity that never changes....just who i am on the outside does ...if a guy doesnt get that and tries to change the way i look or i have to change for him....i cease to be who i am....i am simply who he wants me to be...whatever i do wherever i go ...i accept that im me.....thats what has changed since my break up i accept i am a multiple personality and i can be awesome without doing anything really because i am still here......doesnt mean i dont plan on doing lots of things.....like go to school learn asl.....ill do what i feel i should.......deb
gj13 Posted August 13, 2014 Posted August 13, 2014 Me before: In love but with problems at my job. Started feeling disconnected from him and we started arguing to the point where i became an emotional wreck. Overly dramatic, crying a lot, feeling unhappy and stuck in a my life. During breakup: Can't say i was entirely shocked since i kinda saw it coming, spent way too many months TRYING to fix it, and after the breakup another too many months trying to do things to catch his eye and interest again while we kept in touch and seeing each other. My self esteem went to the floor, i got mad/angry at the world and kept feeling my life was stuck in a routine, feeling miserable. Post breakup: until after 6 months post break up started NC and it's the best I've been feeling for the last 10 months or so. I now feel happy at my job, i enrolled in grad school. Went back to dancing and acting and I started catching up with my friends. I have more fun, i do things MY way and not trying to fill up his expectations all the time. I miss him dearly, I do wish at some point that he could meet this new girl who is just so different from what she was, and much more awesome. I had a couple of dates, nothing serious and i recently met someone and it feels nice. I still love my ex, and constantly wonder about him (especially after he tried calling i never picked up) but i wish the best, just as much as i want the best for me. I do hope he works on his own persona too and gets to feel how great change and evolution can be. I'm just starting to feel happy again. 1
LuvsTrucks2 Posted August 13, 2014 Posted August 13, 2014 BEFORE - heavier, co-dependent, unhappy, conflicted about decision. AFTER - healthier/much lighter, independent and enjoying life! Conscience is clear with decision. 1
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