Author Photofinish Posted July 17, 2014 Author Posted July 17, 2014 I just want the pain to stop. Im literally having an internal battle every single day. I go to the park to cry my eyes out because I cant do that at home.
Zahara Posted July 17, 2014 Posted July 17, 2014 I just want the pain to stop. Im literally having an internal battle every single day. I go to the park to cry my eyes out because I cant do that at home. It's still fresh. It's going to take awhile for you to feel some relief. You are grieving so crying is a normal stage as you go through the pain of this loss. Unfortunately there is no quick fix. I did my crying in the office restrooms, in my car, in the shower, at the park and while I tried to sleep at night. It would give me a good ole' blinding headache because that was all I did for a couple of weeks. It subsides as you go along. It won't stay this way but you just have to accept that it's going to hurt and you're going to have to feel the pain. Cry as much as you need to. It's therapeutic and it's good to purge those feelings. You're going to be fine. It's just going to take some time to get there. 1
Author Photofinish Posted July 17, 2014 Author Posted July 17, 2014 (edited) I think the worse part is that I never got to apologize. I was never given the chance to just fix things. I can prob get him to pick up now considering her responded but I dont need to be told that its out of the question. Im just wondering if ill ever hear from him again. I had a dream with my father today (forcing myself to sleep) where I was so happy to see him. I jumped on his chest and held on like a kid as he stood.He didnt act weird or immature he was just like "hey. Whats up?". Im actually crying as I type this. I keep waking up thinking its just a nightmare thatll blow over once I wake and things are back to normal. Edited July 17, 2014 by Photofinish
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