bexter1987 Posted July 10, 2014 Posted July 10, 2014 I love two different men and have for about 3 months. I left where I was living for 25 years to move in with a guy I have known all my life, but only spent a couple of weekends with. We have a bunch of fun together, but he is not very emotional when it comes to a relationship. He doesn't know how to handle my emotional side. He is an alcoholic but sober for 4 years. Another old classmate contacted me though facebook and although he knew about my bf and I pushed him away, I finally came to trust him and he became my best friend and I fell in love with him. He is an active alcoholic and may have possible health issues that may be life threatening. I got kicked out by my first bf once he found out about the other guy. Even though I had never done anything physical with my best friend, we had an emotional bond. I moved all my stuff to another town where my best friend was at and spent a little week with him. He was everything I wanted in a guy but drank almost daily. Not to a point of drop down drunk, but enough to be buzzed. I also started drinking every other day to a point of being very drunk, which I always felt guilty doing around the first guy. My ex bf called me to let me know he had some stuff to drop off so we met and hung out for a few hours with my teenage son. In that time he convinced me to move back. Although I love him and he is the sensible choice for me and willing to forgive and forget, I cant forget about my best friend who feels like my soulmate. I talk to him daily which is not fair to either of them. I am so lost and confused, I am living with my head, but wishing with my heart.....
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