movingbackwards Posted July 1, 2014 Posted July 1, 2014 Whew, I have been ALL over the place on this one. I'm not sure if it's a culmination of everything that has happened to me in the past year but this has been a painful few days. So after about 7 months I decide to start dating around. Dated one girl who I was attracted to, but she had a bad reputation and did quite a few things that were really immature. Another girl just started showering me with attention. I went with it. With her I wasn't as comfortable but I was having a lot of fun with her. I tell her early on I want just a casual relationship. Call it "dating" or the like, but I told her I wasn't into something serious. We conflicted a lot on it but she was with it.I could tell she was highly confused at how I felt about her. I was too afraid to show a lot of affection because I didn't want her to get the idea we were a definite "thing" I'm not sure where this stems from but I assume it's just fear of getting too close too soon. After a couple months we are seeing each other semi-regularly, as I stay at her house a few nights, etc. In the bedroom I was romantic and passionate. In public I was zero. No affection except mild flirting. We had agreed to be exclusive but not serious by this time. She's now highly confused after about 3 months and finally just says that we should be friends. I was okay with this but I really did enjoy being with her. I honestly just couldn't tell how I felt about the situation as a whole. She was getting angry with me that I wouldn't "kiss her goodbye" when I left and the like. We're 2 months in of being a tad more intimate, I just didn't see the need. She had seamlessly gone from her 2 year breakup over to me. So you could tell she wanted something more NOW, after she dropped me off basically, I give it 2 days to mull it over. I decide I'm into it now (go figure) and sit her down and tell her this. She told me she couldn't answer fully and that she wanted to text me... She basically texted me later that day that she was exhausted of her feelings and was basically over the whole ordeal and wanted to be friends. I'm fine with this yesterday again, knowing that it may not be the best choice for me. I go to the bar last night to meet her and my friends and she gets intoxicated and is holding hands with a guy in our friend circle. I had a good game face but damn, it wasn't what I wanted to see. She texts me this morning about going and doing something today. I can tell this is because she probably feels weird and knows what she did, so she's seeing if I'm still going to be around after some stuff like that. She hardly ever texts me first anymore so this was random. I don't think I can be her friend. I've honestly been hurting pretty bad today. Why are my emotions ALL over the place with her. I'm in, out, in, out, fine, hurt, fine, hurt...constantly. I don't know if I should tell her I cant be friends......maybe just in case down the road she's willing to start over? She was so very very attracted to me so I don't see that going away in just a few short days. I mean she was brutally obsessed with me and that was kind of a turn off. Now I'm...so confused.. I'm being distant to her in texts and it's obvious. She knows that had an impact on me. How can you go from really attracted to someone and just start playing games and messing with their friends? Is this a "look what you're missing out on" thing?
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