OnwardandUpward Posted June 29, 2014 Posted June 29, 2014 don't do it to yourself ..walk away .. i feel her pain..i feel her shame ..i did it via text .. just walk away and let go www.psychoexgirlfriend.com
Author OnwardandUpward Posted June 29, 2014 Author Posted June 29, 2014 Oh gawd i feel so much shame aghhh stupid stupid stupid me For all those folks out there just going thru this now - it does not matter if its a 30 year marraige or a 3 week relationship - go no contact - DO NOT BEG - when you get to the light at the end of the tunnel - you will feel embarrassed. Gosh i think my cheeks are red lol
David87 Posted June 30, 2014 Posted June 30, 2014 Well atleast you learned your lesson OP and next time you'll handle it much better.
sugarlove Posted June 30, 2014 Posted June 30, 2014 Ugh, I only called my ex once and remember it with horror. But then I know i was because I was at my end point and my mind was seriously messed up to focus on logic.
David87 Posted June 30, 2014 Posted June 30, 2014 Ugh, I only called my ex once and remember it with horror. But then I know i was because I was at my end point and my mind was seriously messed up to focus on logic. It seems your BU is recent, how are you coping btw?
sugarlove Posted June 30, 2014 Posted June 30, 2014 (edited) Thanks for asking! Breakup was in the first week of April this year, was going nutty and basically begged and groveled and blamed myself for 2 months. Seek counselling, got diagnosed with PTSD which was a good thing out of this ordeal because the breakup helped me get to the root of my issues. Did everything I could to salvage it. Ups and downs. Tears, isolation, anger, online stalking, grand gestures, sending multiple letters, apologies for everything.. the whole works. (Ugh.. honestly, I became someone else.) He didn't respond. Not once. Not even a crumb. In hindsight, I think it's a good thing he left. He made me catch a glimpse of the rest of my life should I continue to be with someone who didn't want to work things out. All this love he spoke of for me, bull****. It took me almost 3 months to realise it's all fluff. Time really helps to gain perspective! Alls good, feeling better these days, am starting to date but nothing too serious. I'm most likely on my last stage of grief: acceptance. P.S. this forum is a godsend to me. Just posting everything in my head and knowing that I'm no alone really help me to move on. I do have my weak moments. But reading everyone's posts give me strength. So I hope to contribute back and will definitely be here for a bit to help others in return for what you guys did for me. Edited June 30, 2014 by sugarlove 1
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