What could this dream mean?

[purplesoccer34]

I recently got a new position in a company where I'm working closely with one of the heads of a department, and he is about my dad's age. Everyone in the company loves this guy--he's super friendly, patient, and caring and everyone sees him as a father figure. I hear several employees jokingly refer to him as their dad.

 

I'm generally a quiet person, and it's hard for me to get close to people but I've grown to really like him as a person, and also see him as a father figure myself. I don't get too personal or anything, but I talk to him about things that I've never spoken to my dad about, such as friends, childhood, family, etc. That's because, while I think my dad is a wonderful person, I've never been close to him. Even now, our personalities are so radically different that I don't think I could ever become close to my dad. My dad is super intelligent, very caring, and supportive most of the time, but it's slightly hard for me to interact with him properly for a bunch of reasons that I can't even explain. I joke around with my mom and tell her everything about my life, but none of this happens with my dad. I think it's also worth noting that my boss tells me so many cool stories about his past (and even present), whereas I know absolutely nothing about my dad's life, past or present. Even if I asked him questions about his life, he would just smile but never answer them lol. Needless to say, I know way more about my boss than I know about my own father lol.

 

I just had the weirdest dream last night, and I still can't believe I had it. In my dream, my dad was away on vacation or something, and my boss temporarily became my dad. I was super close to him, and there was that fatherly affection (both physically and emotionally) that I hardly ever experienced in my life. It was all great and then when my dad came back home, I yelled at him and asked him why he couldn't be more like my boss. It's ridiculous and I feel bad for even having such a dream lol, but really what could this mean? Could this really mean that deep down I feel the need to be closer to my dad? I'm 23 years old, and all these years, I never really thought about the fact I'm not at all close to him. I was always close to my mother, and that was enough for me. Am I subconsciously feeling the need for a father figure in my life all of a sudden?

Edited June 28, 2014 by purplesoccer34

[Ruby Slippers]

My interpretation is that you have unresolved, suppressed feelings of anger toward your father for not being fatherly in the ways you needed him to be. I'm working on resolving similar feelings now, and have a thread going about it here which I'm using almost as a journal sometimes.

 

You might be surprised how adaptable your dad can be, if you approach him with love, express your feelings, and ask for what you would like. If he is generally caring and supportive as you say, this can definitely happen. My dad is a very prickly guy with a lot of darkness in his heart, and even he is somewhat receptive.