imlost Posted February 17, 2005 Posted February 17, 2005 I donno how to mention all this..i feel so embarrased to share all this but now this is impossible for me to keep it within me .. i broke and now it is 3 months of no contact..i didnt contact her and neither did she contact me ..it was like she completely forgot me after she met other guys in her school and i am not sure but she started having affair .I have no confirmation but i am sure. She ruthlessly dumped me ..so ruthlessly that it hurt more than the NC so i was able to maintain NC but for the three months i kept feeling bad ..i would see her in my dreams ..i would see her coming online and i know that she would be chatting with those guys only....but whenever i think that she dumped me cause of others it wrenches my heart .immense pain ... I have been doing everything that anyone can suggest me ...diverting myself..pretending to be happy ..everything..but today i saw picture of hers partying with her male friends and i felt so bad..i opened my mails and read her old messsages..how ruthlessly she denied that she ever loved me and termed it all as my confusion..i give one example...like once she gave me few pics of her..i dint ask them..i kept them .before kicking me she had mentioned to me that you begged for my pics and i gave them to you and now u think that i loved you so i gave them to you....how will i feel ?????? I swear that i m saying the truth..first she made me love her and then dumped me....i cant hold the pain now..donno the pain is of what..of missing her..feeling bad on seeing with her..feeling bad to be humiliated...feeling bad to be branded having one sided love...3 months of no contact hasnt done any good to me..she is so happy in her life..sometimes i feel that would she ever be thinking of me for even a second ..and my heart says NO..she is so kind and generous and caring for others and so hard hearted for me.... i cant bear it any more.l
Author imlost Posted February 17, 2005 Author Posted February 17, 2005 Oh god its so painful..i am feeling like first day of breakup... I was not able to sleep for a second for the whole night..I am totally unsetlled after seeing her pic...my whole strength has been sucked...i am ashamed to admit it but i just wish to go and beg her not to dump me and take me back...but i wont do this..but what to do ..i m feeling so bad here....
thromback Posted February 17, 2005 Posted February 17, 2005 my ex was kinda the same, its been a week nc she broke u pwith me a month ago, but the hottest girl i nthe school is gonna hook up with me she said she wants to , my suggestion, talk to other girls, stop talking to her.. THats how im getting over mine and hang out with friends
Reactant Posted February 19, 2005 Posted February 19, 2005 Heres a quick lesson through life, quick get a notepad and pencil U know the old saying....time heals wounds... The word "heal" is used really loosely. The thing is, as time goes on, we slowly and slowly forget. This is more practical when someone passes away, they could be someone close, but after a few years, their memories could become a blur. Time goes on and u forget more memories. Time time time, human minds arent perfect. Its sorta sad though, i lost a loved one, and the first thing i knew that was was going to happen was that time goes on i will forget more and more....and eventrually it wont bother me anymore, and that really scared me. So yeah, if ALL other therapies fail, theres only one way that will work; eventually. great adive huh?
Blackout23 Posted February 22, 2005 Posted February 22, 2005 Originally posted by Reactant Heres a quick lesson through life, quick get a notepad and pencil U know the old saying....time heals wounds... The word "heal" is used really loosely. The thing is, as time goes on, we slowly and slowly forget. This is more practical when someone passes away, they could be someone close, but after a few years, their memories could become a blur. Time goes on and u forget more memories. Time time time, human minds arent perfect. Its sorta sad though, i lost a loved one, and the first thing i knew that was was going to happen was that time goes on i will forget more and more....and eventrually it wont bother me anymore, and that really scared me. So yeah, if ALL other therapies fail, theres only one way that will work; eventually. great adive huh? That actually made me realize how scary to heal is. But it is the truth to it...sorta sad... Honestly, in my opinion I think you should go out and party meet new people hang out with your friends and just forget about her completely... She is not worth your time man...
greenhorn Posted February 22, 2005 Posted February 22, 2005 Yeah man Healing is not that easy..but there is no shortcut also.When we love someone we are all by ourself and when we are cheated and betrayed we need to go through that all by ourself. good advice you all...
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