robtmufc Posted June 23, 2014 Posted June 23, 2014 (edited) I've posted on here before about what happened but basically ex broke up with me end of september last year, looking back on it I was quite pathetic asking her to meet up with me and telling her I loved her and wanted to get back together. I decided that I needed to stop and would try and get on with life. Around november time she rang me one night in tears saying she wanted to get back together and then a few days later said she didn't mean it which broke whatever pieces of my heart were left. I tried to move on from this and carry on but she just wouldn't stop ringing me no matter what if I blocked her number she'd ring on a blocked number or on my house phone at silly times at night (like 2/3 in the morning) and say she wanted to be friends but she didn't want to get back together. Whenever we tried to be friends she basically rubbed it in my face every time about how many guys she had been speaking to or had been going on dates with other guys which really hurt me. All the while this was going on I was in my last year at university which suffered massively and I've not done so well because of it which people will say well you should have put that first but my head was everywhere and I suffer from depression after I lost my dad at a young age so that came on and I wasn't in the right state of mind to realise I should get on with uni rather than fixing it with her. Eventually I text her and said I didn't want to talk anymore and that she should leave me alone for the final time then I changed my number(again I should have done this a lot sooner but as I say I wasn't in the right frame of mind at the time) and I haven't spoken to her in nearly 3 months. A few weeks after I changed my number I was told by a friend of mine that shed started going out with someone new which did hurt me but I didn't contact her. The point of my post is just recently (after nearly 3 months of no contact) I don't know why but I keep dreaming about her like no sexual dreams just spending time with her and even in the day I think about her and I don't know why I thought I was over all this a few months ago but turns out I'm not can anyone suggest anything as I hate feeling this way? EDIT: Maybe worth saying that I was feeling really low the other day and text my ex asking how she'd been and she didn't reply, which part of me is hoping its because she's either changed her number or her new boyfriend has told her not to reply. (although the person she is and how she was when we broke up is she probably just didn't reply) Edited June 23, 2014 by robtmufc
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