arya1234 Posted June 23, 2014 Posted June 23, 2014 We dated for six years and assumed that we would end up getting married. The last year was long distance. I was in love and happy. The problem being that we tried but could never have sex. He didn't want to talk about it and told me it would all work out if we spent more time together. I believed in that only that each time things didn't work out I felt horrible. After a while I would just be relieved that it didn't happen. I was distressed but I didn't want to hurt him. I loved him and I convinced myself I was over thinking. The last year of long distance didn't help. We could afford to meet only once in one year. I broke it off because he wasn't coming back and this would continue to remain an issue. I loved him but I had no choice. I didn't want to hurt him. I loved him but I was scared. I had a lot on my mind other than him. I was lonely and depressed because of work. He never called after the break up. Not even once. He got a job in the same city because it was the only job he could've got at the time. I was so happy that he was back. I begged him to get back but he refused. For him my issue was a non issue. I was shocked. I didn't and still don't understand why he trivialised an important part of the relationship. A few months back he started dating someone else. It is killing me that he would not want to give our relationship a chance and would give everything I dreamed of our lives to someone else. Why did he never understand how much this issue hurt me during our relationship and after. I feel stupid for being blindly in love with him. Sex being a sensitive issue. I have not been able to confide in anyone. We don't talk anymore because each time I called he wanted a reason. And then I couldn't bear to see him so I deleted him on Facebook. Then I fought with him over something when I needed his help. There was a misunderstanding and instead of clearing it. He let me believe what I did. I got angry. He blocked me on everything and told me he never wanted to contact me. He asked me if loved him while he was dating someone else. I didn't know that he was but thankfully I didn't say yes to that. I'm hurt by his actions. Also he was happy that his bff deleted me off Facebook. He said his bff was more angry with me than him. I don't understand any of it. All I did was all him to get back. Yes I angry when he said no. But I did not expect this from him. My head is spinning.
PegNosePete Posted June 23, 2014 Posted June 23, 2014 I broke it off because he wasn't coming back So... you dumped him. And now you're surprised that he doesn't want to get back together? Why should he? You dumped him!!! Now he has someone new. This is what happens when you dump people... He's clearly not interested in getting back together. You need to move on, sorry.
Author arya1234 Posted June 23, 2014 Author Posted June 23, 2014 We were in different countries and he wanted to work abroad. There was no end date. I just hoped there would be some future if he came back. I am trying to move on. But I still love him. I know he has moved on. I don't know how to move on.
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