morningglory Posted June 20, 2014 Posted June 20, 2014 (edited) It's been how many months now since I ended my 9 year relationship. Though I can say that I had courageously face the fact that all what we had will be just a memories moving forward. It hurts like hell, yes!I shed tons of tears,grieved and embrace all the pain.I guess I made the right decision to leave. I caught him cheating.It's not just once but twice so I guess it's OVER.I gave him a chance when it happened once,hoping for him to change and just be faithful with me.I don't know if he had change genuinely coz I still have the guts that he still seeing someone or perhaps sleeping with this woman. They say that the key for a good relationship is communication.And so I say that we talked, we shared, basically we communicate.As the time goes by I still had this doubts, but sometimes admit that I also had some denial with myself that he will not do it again. It's also been a year since we are playing hide and seek, a bumpy ride for me to caught him,but all of my efforts were just in vain. One morning, I stumble upon this verse in the bible quoting to put all of my worries and troubles to God. Since then, almost everyday, everynight all throughout the year I never ceased to pray and asked God that I would be able to know the truth so I will be able to set myself free without any guilt from our relationship.I hold on to Him that He will answer me, till one day right on my very eyes I saw the truth that I had been seeking and asking for a long time. And Yes my heart was rotten like hell! But then again, I just prayed for guidance and bigger heart to accept it. It's not easy, coz honestly I could not even breath.Instead of confronting them and seek revenge coz of his unfaithfulness and infidelity. I did nothing, as sweet revenge is kindness.Right on that time I forgive them.I don't know where did I got my strength but one thing that I am certain is that God is my knight. He picked me up, comforted me and help me see that there still a beauty of life and that my heart is still capable to love and be love.We oftentimes don't see a reason why we don't always get what we want, but in the end of it all it's God's will. For now, I don't know if I would be able to find a "good man"again. Some of my close friends advice me to go online dating. It's just I don't know how to find a genuine person, but I will never ceased to pray maybe someday on His perfect time He will give it to me. Edited June 20, 2014 by a LoveShack.org Moderator Paragraphs 6
Scorpio Chick Posted June 20, 2014 Posted June 20, 2014 I'm so sorry for your pain, but your post is actually full of beauty. You sound like an incredible person. I wish you find the man that will bring you happiness. 3
Speakingofwhich Posted June 20, 2014 Posted June 20, 2014 Morning Glory, that was a beautiful post! I believe God will continue to lead you as you put your trust in Him. He has also been amazing for me in my life and delivered me from a relationship I wasn't able to get out of on my own. I could never have done it had He not intervened. Thanks for posting and please continue to post and update! 1
stillafool Posted June 20, 2014 Posted June 20, 2014 Morning Glory, I too relied on God to bring me through a rough breakup. I asked him to choose the man for me because I didn't know how. He sent my husband and I have been very happily married for 17 years. 2
Author morningglory Posted June 22, 2014 Author Posted June 22, 2014 This side of heaven, we may not find answers for our desperate questions of “Why did this happen?” and “Why me?” But we can rest in the truth that God is in control and that He loves us. 1
Author morningglory Posted June 22, 2014 Author Posted June 22, 2014 I'm so sorry for your pain, but your post is actually full of beauty. You sound like an incredible person. I wish you find the man that will bring you happiness. Yeah right Scorpio Chick, He knows our hearts desire, even the smallest particles on earth He knows it very well coz He is and all knowing God. He will give to us so long as we remain humble and faithful to Him.
Author morningglory Posted June 22, 2014 Author Posted June 22, 2014 Morning Glory, I too relied on God to bring me through a rough breakup. I asked him to choose the man for me because I didn't know how. He sent my husband and I have been very happily married for 17 years. Glory to God! That's a very good thing to know, Hope that God will strengthen you both together as years goes by and it will turn out as fruitful one putting Him as your solid foundation. Cheers to that! 1
Author morningglory Posted June 22, 2014 Author Posted June 22, 2014 Morning Glory, that was a beautiful post! I believe God will continue to lead you as you put your trust in Him. He has also been amazing for me in my life and delivered me from a relationship I wasn't able to get out of on my own. I could never have done it had He not intervened. Thanks for posting and please continue to post and update! God does not have to answer our questions, but He will always keep His promises. 1
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