Justaguy30 Posted June 19, 2014 Posted June 19, 2014 I first got a call from her number which she had blocked me from and I didn't answer. I then got a call from a California number which I did answer. It was her, she was crying and wanted to talk. I talked to her which was kind of nice I guess. She felt bad that she had gotten me put in jail for two days which she should have seeing how she messed up that night. I made some bad choices but the charges should have been dropped. Anyhow then she wanted to come over and talk in person which I was not so hot on but she seemed to be feeling extremely down so I allowed it. This is a person who cheated on me an outrageous amount of times with an outrageous amount of people and then she wanted to sit there and tell me how it never happened because she doesn't want me to think she is a horrible person. A crazy person she is, a selfish person but horrible she is not. Abusive, mean, violent yes but not horrible. Anyhow after some time of her telling me how she never cheated on me I just kind of lost interest. She then told me how much she misses my friendship as we have known each other for 13 years. I too miss our connection as it was sort of once in a lifetime but we also had a very serious relationship in which she disrespected me in terrible ways. I feel like she only wanted to do that to make sure i didn't hate her so that when I saw her around I wouldn't blow her off when I see her out or what ever which she pretty much said was true. I mean I don't know how to feel. I loved her more than anything and she clearly doesn't want me in her life in anyway other than just a guy she knows and hopes when I see her I will act like she is cool or something. Just felt ****ty, I am considered changing my phone number as it makes me feel like crap when things like that happen between us.
somecamel Posted June 19, 2014 Posted June 19, 2014 I first got a call from her number which she had blocked me from and I didn't answer. I then got a call from a California number which I did answer. It was her, she was crying and wanted to talk. I talked to her which was kind of nice I guess. She felt bad that she had gotten me put in jail for two days which she should have seeing how she messed up that night. I made some bad choices but the charges should have been dropped. Anyhow then she wanted to come over and talk in person which I was not so hot on but she seemed to be feeling extremely down so I allowed it. This is a person who cheated on me an outrageous amount of times with an outrageous amount of people and then she wanted to sit there and tell me how it never happened because she doesn't want me to think she is a horrible person. A crazy person she is, a selfish person but horrible she is not. Abusive, mean, violent yes but not horrible. Anyhow after some time of her telling me how she never cheated on me I just kind of lost interest. She then told me how much she misses my friendship as we have known each other for 13 years. I too miss our connection as it was sort of once in a lifetime but we also had a very serious relationship in which she disrespected me in terrible ways. I feel like she only wanted to do that to make sure i didn't hate her so that when I saw her around I wouldn't blow her off when I see her out or what ever which she pretty much said was true. I mean I don't know how to feel. I loved her more than anything and she clearly doesn't want me in her life in anyway other than just a guy she knows and hopes when I see her I will act like she is cool or something. Just felt ****ty, I am considered changing my phone number as it makes me feel like crap when things like that happen between us. Meaning she's just broke up with one of her most recent flings and needs your shoulder to cry on. I feel for you, why can't she just leave you alone. If you can change your number without it affecting your life too much I'd go for it. 1
Author Justaguy30 Posted June 19, 2014 Author Posted June 19, 2014 I didn't really consider that last night but she did mention that no one loved her in conversation so that totally makes sense. I am guessing the new relationship didn't work out and has probably been one of a few that have failed in the last few months. I am guessing she started thinking about how much of a good guy I am and started missing me but only came over so I could make her feel better about herself.
somecamel Posted June 19, 2014 Posted June 19, 2014 I didn't really consider that last night but she did mention that no one loved her in conversation so that totally makes sense. I am guessing the new relationship didn't work out and has probably been one of a few that have failed in the last few months. I am guessing she started thinking about how much of a good guy I am and started missing me but only came over so I could make her feel better about herself. You got it in one:):) Change your number mate, you don't need this **** in your life. She'll keep on coming crawling back and you'll never be able to move on.
Author Justaguy30 Posted June 20, 2014 Author Posted June 20, 2014 She actually said sorry for a lot of things I thought she would never apologize for and it sounded like she was thinking very clearly about how her actions effect other people. I feel a lot better to be honest. Like a cloud has lifted or something. We shall see if the feeling lasts.
somecamel Posted June 20, 2014 Posted June 20, 2014 She actually said sorry for a lot of things I thought she would never apologize for and it sounded like she was thinking very clearly about how her actions effect other people. I feel a lot better to be honest. Like a cloud has lifted or something. We shall see if the feeling lasts. Maybe, and it's just a maybe she is remorseful of her actions but could you even contemplate taking her back knowing she's been out playing the field?
Author Justaguy30 Posted June 20, 2014 Author Posted June 20, 2014 The story gets pretty complex and I think I could because I really truly love her but what she did was absolutely horrible. She would do it again
somecamel Posted June 20, 2014 Posted June 20, 2014 The story gets pretty complex and I think I could because I really truly love her but what she did was absolutely horrible. She would do it again Take those rose tinted glasses off please. I was 20 when I took my first one back after she cheated, we made my son (whom I love with all my heart), but we split 6 months after he was born. Everyone's story is complex and NO-ONE can understand it like you do because you're there and you're living this, we're not. Please stop punishing yourself, you openly admit that you know she'll do it again and yet you would still go back there? What is it going to take to make you open your eyes and see this for what it is? Life's an experience, live it, love it, hate it etc, you need to have your low times to realise your the high times
No Limit Posted June 20, 2014 Posted June 20, 2014 Saying sorry and actually meaning it are worlds apart. Cut all ties, don't let her manipulate you. And yes, change your number. 1
Author Justaguy30 Posted June 21, 2014 Author Posted June 21, 2014 No I will not be going back to her and I will cut all ties. I have had enough of this bull ****. The only thing that matters in life to her is her. She is selfish and hurtful and doesn't care how she effects anyone else. She told me if she saw me at this place we used to see each other that if I didn't acknowledge her she might kill herself. Well she ignored me for 5 months while we lived together and then got a PAS because I went over and knocked on the door twice at the house that I lived at because I wanted my stuff back because I never got a chance to move out. To her I am just a door mat which she can choose to use when she wants. That is it and I am going to block her number and if she does call from another number I will hang up. No more ever. I am actually pissed off right now.
Author Justaguy30 Posted June 21, 2014 Author Posted June 21, 2014 I refuse to be involved in any way with someone that gets to choose when to acknowledge me and even did so by law and still contacts me but if I want to say something I get ignored. **** that, never again, ever.
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