Atticus9292012 Posted June 18, 2014 Posted June 18, 2014 I read some of the other posts from people coping with a relationship that ended after many years.....I feel ridiculous about being hung up on someone I only dated for a few months. Oh well being honest with yourself is the first part of the healing process. The length of the relationship doesn't necessarily mean anything, I think. I feel like getting over my ex-husband of five years was easier than this..... Anyway, been 11 days no contact. Its been hard. He lives down the street from me, we have a lot of mutual friends and go to a lot of the same places. I have been avoiding my usual hangouts, those friends, and not contacting him. I think about him all the time. I have seen him out running a couple of times near where we live. It has been really hard in those moments to not reach out. I know where his friends live and other places he hangs out. I have been tempted to accidentally "bump into him" or drive by. I have resisted. I have to revel in the small victories.... His buddy got married this weekend and a bunch of our friends went. He was a groomsmen in the wedding. Its been so hard not to ask if he brought a date or how the wedding was. I have to drive by one of the places we met to pick up my son everyday from daycare and I used to see his car there pretty often. I purposefully changed routes so I don't drive by it. I guess eventually I can resume my old patterns. I just know how little self control I have when it comes to him and I have to stay away. I keep telling myself with each passing day it will get easier. I just keep wanting to bang my head on my desk for feeling this way and wanting to turn off this imaginary switch inside of me to "I do not love you anymore."
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