Kaiten Posted June 16, 2014 Posted June 16, 2014 There is a girl that I have known of since I was 17. I am much older now, and it only just occurred to me yesterday that she and I are both single. I had her number from texting her a couple years ago, so we both had the same numbers we've had. I had seen her at church that morning and she looked so stunningly beautiful that I came home and talked to my roommate for about an hour about her. Over the years she and I had a few isolated conversations here or there. Well, let me be honest. In my 5/6 years of knowing her, we've had approximately 2 conversations (both of which were on the phone for a little over half an hour). I have never felt like she was interested in me in any way, shape, or form. But I didn't know 100% so I decided to text her. I'll admit that even I, Kaiten, am nervous around her. She's so gorgeous and she's so smart. I am assuming that she has intentionally avoided dating someone because she has been in med school and wanted to focus on that. She graduated about 3 weeks ago. About 2.5 years ago, I had a huge crush on her, but I never bothered to say anything because she is white and I am black. Now normally, that's not enough to deter me, but there are actually 2 more important factors: 1) She is a Christian 2) Who was born and raised in the south This means that there is a good chance that she is super-conservative. But I still want to try. She is pretty open to me and responds to my texts and answers if I call. Which most southern christian girls don't do. (they're mostly afraid of inter-gender relationships, and avoid them bigtime.) Anyway, I texted her yesterday and I told her that I had known her all these years, and didn't know much about her, and that I wanted to get to know her a little better. And then I asked her if that was cool. She said "haha sure" I asked her again so that I was sure I wasn't dreaming. I know a few things about her from other people telling me, so I am really interested in finally talking with her one on one. I asked her about getting lunch, but she will be busy during daytimes because she is starting her doctory career stuff. I'm cool with that. We'll be talking kinda sporadically until her schedule settles down in a few weeks. There is this thought in the back of my head though, that she might not be aware that I am interested in her, thinking that I wouldn't be interested in her because I am black. Like maybe she doesn't take me seriously? But part of the reason I think this is because I can't even believe that she is reciprocating like this. It's also kinda strange because she has a med school degree, the lab coat and everything. I, on the other hand, am a dropout, and I don't even want to go to college. I want to be an entrepreneur, author, and public speaker. I used to be extremely insecure about not having a degree, but in all honesty it's something I am proud of, because if you met me you would be surprised at my skill range and skill level in those ranges. I am fully prepared to build a life out of nothing. I really want to talk about this. She is just one of the most awesome girls I have met, because I know she likes fiction, she's smart, and she is beautiful. Do you think that race will be a huge issue/deal-breaker? Keep in mind that we are in the South and a lot of people here have the "stick to your own kind, cuz that's what God wants" mentality down here. I may as well ask also, do you think that she might be worried about me not having a degree or my not wanting to even pursue one? I, personally, am almost certain that I will be successful in convincing her that I will stop at nothing to become successful (and provide), but I want to hear you guys' thoughts and experiences. Thanks for reading.
Author Kaiten Posted June 16, 2014 Author Posted June 16, 2014 Also, this will be the most intellectual and driven girl I have ever talked with and pursued. How do you not f#ck up? e.g. not coming on too strong, talking too much/little about yourself, etc.
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