ommzgn Posted June 14, 2014 Posted June 14, 2014 hello. first of all this is my first post. second, I'm not native on English so excuse me for my mistakes. Now, I want to tell my story. I had a GF. we've been together for 4 yrs. she was 21 when we broke but now is 22, I'm 24. she left me exactly on dec 31 13, so it's been 5 months and counting. I still miss her, dearly, and passionately. She dumped me because she said she was not happy, and that she changed and wanted to be alone. first she asked for a time but I disagree as I found that to be unfair, so she said we were done. I cried a lot during that moment, I felt like if someone died, I honestly felt a funeral vibe. Anyway, I cried and told her that I was sad because we would never be together again, so she said that we don't know and that I always jumped to the worst conclusion. I was so devastated that I didn't even go to my family dinner nor with my friends. It was the worst new year eve ever. TBH I wasn't that happy anymore in our relationship. I did love her and I worked as hard as I could for it to work, but I was unhappy because she got a new job and was very distant since then. I obviously though she was dating someone new and that that was the reason she called it quits. she obviously denied it. Anyway, days passed and she left some breadcrumbs and stuff like that. then she send me a mail saying she was sorry for the break up but that it was for the best and that I should enjoy life and stuff. I was so sad I called and beg and stuff. anyway, I saw begging didn't work so I went NC to get her back. time passed and then I started to know about her through mutual friends. I was told that she got an enormous ego, thinking I was an ahole, that I was mean, a bad bf, and telling people about personal issues I never told anyone but her. that really killed me, as I would never bad mouth anyone, let alone talk about personal issues. so I called her to tell her how hurtful her attitude was towards me. she denied everything, so I told her to give my stuff back. I told her to leave her with her maid so we didn't have to see each other and she agreed. she only left a sweater and kept my most important stuff. time went by and I emailed her a sorry letter just because I wanted to forgive myself. and after that I stick to NC for real. As I said I started NC to get her back, but as time went by, I realised that it was for my own sanity. Now after 5 months and starting the 6th (almost) I realised she had GIGS. for now she's not dating anyone (at least not serious) and she hasn't left breadcrumbs anymore, so I don't know. she send me a message 2w ago because I got into a fist fight defending a random girl (I lost though) but it wasn't breadcrumb because it was not out of the blue and wasn't than intimate, though I don't know how she know about this. even though I erased her on FB sometimes I see stuff about her, like commenting on mutual friends status and stuff like that, and most of the time is stuff about love and exes and things like that. She hasn't erased any pic with me, even the romantic ones, and even though I erased her from tumblr and twitter, she still follows me. One time she change her profile pic to a very old photo I took of her. Sometime ago she called a very close friend though my friend couldn't answer so we don't know what she wanted or why she was calling. She upload a photo of her ferret but I was feeding him in the photo, just my hands are visible. That's all, that's why I don't think these are breadcrumbs, just coincidences. we were a ver cool and cute couple, she's kinda punkish dark, and me too, we were almost a concept, the best couple ever. very stylish too. most people though we were gonna get married, most we're shocked we broke up, and most told me that this was just a phase. of course not, we've been broken for (again) 5 months, and she doesn't seem to want to come back. she's been so rude and mean, specially since she talked bad about me, and about personal stuff, and I just don't know this girl anymore. she's just another person. another mean and crazy person. as for now she is globetrotting in Paris where a female friend of her lives. so what do you guys think? please someone say anything, I just want to feel read and understood. greeting to everyone.
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