Flek Posted June 12, 2014 Posted June 12, 2014 I need help from all of you. I made a terrible mistake and I lost the girl I care about most. In this video you can’t see everything that happened. So many things happened to turn me into a monster. But still she is the best thing that has ever happened to me although I screwed up everything and my apologies are not enough anymore. It may be too late but I hope this video will show her how sorry I am. If not then it can be a warning for you all. We are both from different countries. To communicate we used English because I don't know her language and she doesn’t know mine. And maybe because of this her friends didn't accept me. Despite the distance, we have made it through years together and love each other like no other. Now they tell me to let her go, and to forget our past and I ask them, “How could I? How could anybody?” For five years I have believed that I want to grow old with her and how can I stop, just like that? I want to tell her I have changed, I’m not a monster anymore, and how sorry I am for hurting her. Please help me to get this message to my love. Please share this short movie and choose how you would like it to end. I know this movie is not perfect at all. It could be better but I made it with hope and love in my heart. I am in the middle of my Bachelor’s exam but I cannot stop thinking of her. Instead of studying I made this video. Thank you for your understanding. Thank you for everything. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SgRRJMkzWcY
umirano Posted June 12, 2014 Posted June 12, 2014 that's confusing. Why don't you just email her the link to it? I haven't looked at it and I'm not going to. Good luck
Author Flek Posted June 12, 2014 Author Posted June 12, 2014 I lost with her totally contact. Relationship on long distance is really bad on it. I must say I expect somebody like you and it is sad people don´t understand each other anymore and they don´t even try to help each other. I thought that this Forum is made for it….. to help people with love. To help find solution and so on. Isn´t it so?
umirano Posted June 13, 2014 Posted June 13, 2014 I don't see how a video can solve a problem like this. Videos are one-way communication. If anything is to help your problem, you need to be in direct two-way communication with her. I am reluctant to look at links people post in this forum because I have a bad experience with it (spam, unsafe pages, etc.)
Author Flek Posted June 13, 2014 Author Posted June 13, 2014 I know that two way communication is better but how I told I lost contact with her and I cannot go there on coffe because it is long distance. Then I try something better like just sit on my ass. This video I did on my own from start (it also look so ). Since when is youtube unsafe page ? or spam ? interesting this I listen first time in my life
ExpatInItaly Posted June 13, 2014 Posted June 13, 2014 I need help from all of you. I made a terrible mistake and I lost the girl I care about most. In this video you can’t see everything that happened. So many things happened to turn me into a monster. But still she is the best thing that has ever happened to me although I screwed up everything and my apologies are not enough anymore. It may be too late but I hope this video will show her how sorry I am. If not then it can be a warning for you all. We are both from different countries. To communicate we used English because I don't know her language and she doesn’t know mine. And maybe because of this her friends didn't accept me. Despite the distance, we have made it through years together and love each other like no other. Now they tell me to let her go, and to forget our past and I ask them, “How could I? How could anybody?” For five years I have believed that I want to grow old with her and how can I stop, just like that? I want to tell her I have changed, I’m not a monster anymore, and how sorry I am for hurting her. Please help me to get this message to my love. Please share this short movie and choose how you would like it to end. I know this movie is not perfect at all. It could be better but I made it with hope and love in my heart. I am in the middle of my Bachelor’s exam but I cannot stop thinking of her. Instead of studying I made this video. Thank you for your understanding. Thank you for everything. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SgRRJMkzWcY This is disturbing. What did you do? 1
justwhoiam Posted June 14, 2014 Posted June 14, 2014 Calling yourself a monster is pretty harsh. What did you do? It sounds like something very serious.
todreaminblue Posted June 14, 2014 Posted June 14, 2014 (edited) i watched your video....hang on sec...composing thoughts to write because my heart is aching a little at your video...... i am an anomaly of a woman.......so in all honesty you would be worth the fight by what you made......no matter what you have done in the past its easy to change perception if you look deeper with a hearts true intentions which is what you effectively and simply showed in a child like video a little desire a longing to change and hope....full of hope....is never hope less..onely ever full never empty...my friend.....i am a real fighter and stubborn i come undone with hope.....and i am a puzzle that is truly guarded in nature...so yes....you have hope much to be had..hope is alwasy a graceful dancer.i always fight on hopes side right or wrong for me doesnt matter ill chase hope and back that for hope is where my heart rests in peace............ and i hope i have given you more hope...do not delay time with indecsion, and angst it fades hope and you should not fade out what you have now..do not let shyness be your enemy embrace it adn be sweet nevr be afraid t embrace fear because it means you truly care about what youa re fighting for...please keep udates.....here...so i can read them........to have loved and lost is nto defeated ...but to be defeated is to never loved to try for hopes success at all.....i know that isnt the right quote but it is mine for you with a use of words written by a great thinker i borowed some of them and especially the sentiment behind the wistful words meaning "to have never loved at all"........create hope as you have by chasing it....deb Edited June 14, 2014 by todreaminblue
Author Flek Posted June 14, 2014 Author Posted June 14, 2014 About my reasons I could speak really long even they are really good then it nothing change that it shouldn't happen. What I did to become a monster in video you can see red eyes and gray hare (this is me as monster) I become extremely jealous and in love. Really bad combination in relation on long distance. Also I stop trust her. Now my regretting of mistakes change nothing. Sorry is not enough and everything what I try with hope that it will make it better then because of my bad luck I mess up and it hurt her again and again. So stupid I am so dumb.
HeavenOrHell Posted June 14, 2014 Posted June 14, 2014 I don't think you should be in a r/ship at all until you've sorted your jealousy issues out.
justwhoiam Posted June 14, 2014 Posted June 14, 2014 Jealousy can be healthy too. If you define yourself as a monster because of it, that means your jealousy level was clinical, very unhealthy. The video you made is kind of disturbing. I guess she's the only one able to get your message, so it makes sense if I don't get it. Still, I'm not sure your approach is correct. The image of you stuck on a wall and your arms blocked as if you were under torture doesn't look good at all. It's as if - besides letting her know what your pain level is - you're somehow blaming her at the same time. Get rid of the bad feelings. A sad face and crying eyes would convey the message well, instead of some evil monster's face. The difference? Being sad and crying shows your true emotions, while portraying yourself as evil shows you are aware you can hurt people but that's what you are and uncapable of feeling remorse. You can turn your life to a better life, if you want to.
Author Flek Posted June 14, 2014 Author Posted June 14, 2014 I know about my mistakes about jealousy and I have never been so. She also never made any miskate never hurt me before I didn´t know how to act. I would like say it is gone and I will be never again so much jealouse anymore but nobody will believe only chance is prove it but how can I prove it on my own xD. My level jealousy was clinical and very unhealthy. This how I blocked my arms should mean that I have been blinde and I feel in this moment like when you catch snake. He try to get away how much it is possible but he don´t know how. Also it should show that I could change her decision at all I had block my arms. It has been everything to late and when I waik up she has been gone. What I would like to tell with this video with monster and everything is that I see my mistakes and I don´t shy for them I regret them. And I want to turn my life to a better life. But I would like to do it with her. I want to be this person who I was trusting sametimes blind but not jealouse and I believe I can be this person but not sure how to prove it anymore.
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