wolfmisha Posted June 10, 2014 Posted June 10, 2014 3 weeks ago my gf brooke up with me, was because i used to drink allot back then and got into allot of trouble with the law - last 3 years have been a total mess to me so i took this wonderfull one of a kind girl for granted and acted like a drunken fool the 2 months we been toghether, never laied a hand on her maybe just acted like a drama queen now and then with her starting 3 weeks ago i went into nc but i broke it today, had to call her and ask for my spare key she was holding since i lost my keyes today - no bs i had no other option what bakes my noodle now is that i called her and said i'd be over her apartment and she could trow the key from the 4th floor where she lives or something - she says ok come over i get there and she trows the key down but not the zodic keychain - she's very much into that - i gave her with the key i'm really trying to get over this girl and heal/manup but i still have strong feelings for her - nc works wonders for healing - this keychain thing - does it mean anything? in truth i also spared one plastic pearl from one of her broken necklace - trew everything else reminding me of her away - and i plan to stick that on my wrist once im over her - just a reminder of how much she meant for me and how much of an impact she had on changeing myself in conclussion - am i thinking to much of that keychain?
Author wolfmisha Posted June 10, 2014 Author Posted June 10, 2014 (edited) altough i've been in 5 rl's so far, im 31, i never 'till now experienced what i now call love - always tought i'd be one of those individuals that will never experience it - she's my true love so far - maybe i don't yet understand this feeling but she loved me and i loved her back, that's how i feel i'm 100% she loved me and i don't know what to make of all of this right now i'm thinking on one side - should i hope just cause she kept that keychain - i should break nc and ask for another chance - or on the other side i'm thinking to much of this and i should let her and myself be i can't trust my heart at this moment and need different pov's on this Edited June 10, 2014 by wolfmisha
lauri Posted June 10, 2014 Posted June 10, 2014 Hey man...really sorry you are going through all this pain. Let's be honest here - if she didn't breakup with you would have you realized all of your mistakes / problems? Chances are you would have continued to live and do these things which would have got you into more trouble. Maybe you still do, maybe you don't. I don't judge you either way and LS will be here to guide you through these rough times coming up. I think you can view this breakup as a wake up call. This is your chance to prove that you are much better then a guy who just gets into trouble with the law and drinks a lot. You can take all these feelings and put it towards bettering yourself. The best thing you can do is not speak with her and not try to force the issue. You have to have the mentality that it is over forever. You have to learn from your mistakes and think that when you meet this next amazing girl how do you avoid getting into the mess you are in now and being in pain. Maybe one day she will come back to you but I can promise you unless you really put the effort in and show you are a improved person, chances she is gone forever. But you need to to do this for yourself first and foremost.
ConfusedHumanBeing Posted June 10, 2014 Posted June 10, 2014 3 weeks ago my gf brooke up with me, was because i used to drink allot back then and got into allot of trouble with the law - last 3 years have been a total mess to me so i took this wonderfull one of a kind girl for granted and acted like a drunken fool the 2 months we been toghether, never laied a hand on her maybe just acted like a drama queen now and then with her starting 3 weeks ago i went into nc but i broke it today, had to call her and ask for my spare key she was holding since i lost my keyes today - no bs i had no other option what bakes my noodle now is that i called her and said i'd be over her apartment and she could trow the key from the 4th floor where she lives or something - she says ok come over i get there and she trows the key down but not the zodic keychain - she's very much into that - i gave her with the key i'm really trying to get over this girl and heal/manup but i still have strong feelings for her - nc works wonders for healing - this keychain thing - does it mean anything? in truth i also spared one plastic pearl from one of her broken necklace - trew everything else reminding me of her away - and i plan to stick that on my wrist once im over her - just a reminder of how much she meant for me and how much of an impact she had on changeing myself in conclussion - am i thinking to much of that keychain? Yes, you are thinking WAY too much about an item. She broke up with you. There is no hidden meaning or reasons behind it....even though you want them to be. You guys were only together two months? Not really a lot of time there. Seems like she was done with your ways and walked away. Not uncommon, especially with how short the relationship was. Learn from it. Make yourself better and go out and find it again....next time, do things a LOT different.
Author wolfmisha Posted June 10, 2014 Author Posted June 10, 2014 Hey man...really sorry you are going through all this pain. Let's be honest here - if she didn't breakup with you would have you realized all of your mistakes / problems? Chances are you would have continued to live and do these things which would have got you into more trouble. Maybe you still do, maybe you don't. I don't judge you either way and LS will be here to guide you through these rough times coming up. I think you can view this breakup as a wake up call. This is your chance to prove that you are much better then a guy who just gets into trouble with the law and drinks a lot. You can take all these feelings and put it towards bettering yourself. The best thing you can do is not speak with her and not try to force the issue. You have to have the mentality that it is over forever. You have to learn from your mistakes and think that when you meet this next amazing girl how do you avoid getting into the mess you are in now and being in pain. Maybe one day she will come back to you but I can promise you unless you really put the effort in and show you are a improved person, chances she is gone forever. But you need to to do this for yourself first and foremost. i know this breakup, altough painfull as it is right now is the best thing that could've happened to me in the long run i am a changed man and gave up on drinking and realised with a sober mind why she left me - and i agree with her it's just this damn keychain thing that botters me - i feel so bad for loosing my own keys thus breaking nc - it's like i see a dim light at the end of the tunnel she knows how i feel about her - i told her last phonecall we had and i made it clear i want a second chance and i'm done beeing a fool - she could call me anytime i'm just in pain now with thinking over this keychain issue - is it a sign from her that i should hang on or i'm just a damn fool
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