My One Night Stand:

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I haven't been single since I was 22. I was married for a long time.. had kids, divorced, and immediately in another long term relationship. Now I recently broke up with my boyfriend of 5 years. (well.. we broke up 3 months ago) I am madly in love with him and cannot for the life of me get him out of my system. It has been awful. There are days I don't even get out of bed. We have tried a couple of times to figure things out but keep hitting a dead end so recently we went No Contact and blocked each other on Facebook, which has made me miss him even more and feel even more depressed.

 

I haven't gone out in like 2.5 months so this past Wednesday night I went to an awards show that I had free tickets for. I took my best friend and we had an amazing time. Before we left I posted on Facebook that I was going and a guy I met 3 years ago replied that he was going too. I met him in a class to get my mototcycle license and he was the hipster type. Very hot. Kinda hairy all over and a short, sexy beard. Dressed very musician-ish. Hairy chest. Sexy brown eyes. Kissable lips. I was dating my boyfriend at the time I met him so just casually flirted with him on our breaks and admired his tight skinny jeans from afar. YUM. He also had a girlfriend at the time. We became friends on Facebook and chatted a couple times here and there. I also saw him at a club his band was performing at. No big deal. His girlfriend was there and my boyfriend was there.

 

AnyHOO…. Fast forward to Wednesday and he said he would be at the award show.. so I messaged him my number and he texted me after the show to meet up with him and his friends. Me and my girlfriend met them and we had a booze fueled evening with them. This guy was Skill level MASTER at flirting with me. He is 33 years old. (I am 41) He was now single as well.. and somehow convinced me to go home with him. I'm serious…. he could teach a class because as upset as I have been over my Ex I haven't been able to fathom another man touching me… yet here I was climbing into a Lyft ride.. headed to his hip East Nashville loft. Who am I?????

 

Already drunk we proceeded to his balcony and drank another glass of wine. It started to pour down rain.. lighting.. wind…. Like "Cue the storm". It was amazing. He pressed me against the bricks and hiked my leg up and kissed me passionately. I melted. He lifted my dress over my head and carried me to the shower where things really took a turn. I mean damn. I was hopeless. Then we climbed into his bed.. windows open.. storm raging, and we ****ed for I don't even know how long. I just know it was twice.

 

Next thing I know it's morning and OMG the hangover… and OMG what the hell… where am I? I look over and there he is.. dead asleep. I shake him… "what time is it?" Hmm???? It's like 8. God. I'm late for work. He's late for work. I feel panic but he grabs me up and cuddles.. "chill… We can call in late". Really? So no awkwardness? He was so sweet to me. (shocking) One thing led to another and we did it two more times. Then after coffee and cereal he drove me home.

 

Now I'm not gonna lie. I DID enjoy it and didn't feel as guilty as I thought. This was my first one night stand. It did NOT compare to my EX tho. Not even close. It was good as in it was sexy.. he was sexy, it was wrong, It was reckless, and it was different. But did it cure my longing for my Ex? Not even a little bit. If anything I am now even more depressed. It's like I have played a card I can't un-play. I don't exactly regret it..but I kinda do. It's like no turning back now. Me and my EX are really over.

 

Will this guy call me again? Who knows. He texted me the next day and asked if I survived the hangover. I told him I did.. and that I had a great time. He said he did to. I told him I needed it to rain again. SOON. He replied with two devil faces and a wet spot emoticon. Not sure what that means. Whatever. If he calls I will probably **** him again. Maybe we can morph into a Friends with Benefits situation. Will it help me get over my Ex? Sadly… I think I will miss him forever.

[endlessabyss]

You should write a book.

 

You may top 50 shades of gray.