Timmy1992 Posted June 5, 2014 Posted June 5, 2014 Hey everyone just want to start of by saying hi. I just joined and have seen some amazing advice on here. Here is my biggest problem ... So I have been head over heels inlove with my ex best friend for 15 years. Overall it has been bumpy and I had to watch her date all these guys up to the point she lost her virginity to one. We were 20 at the time she told me... I had to hear all the details and I stood by her side. I tried to tell her that it was getting too hard to be her friend and be in love with her so I requested space. She accused me of leaving her and held it against me everytime I tried to get space. Well right before I went to basic training we started to get close and agreed to give a chance at a relationship. Before I shipped of to the military we stayed on the phont talking about how it would be if we got married and had kids. Every moment I got I wrote her long love letters. She started to ignore them and got upset at me because she said I always wrote her love letters and never mentioned how basic was going. Well shortly after I got a medical discharge and came back... Things were ok for awhile then she said she wasnt over her ex and then I got distant. I found out they were talking and attenpted to back away and she was jelouse. She constantly thought I was dateing other people and got jelouse over every girl I spoke to. Then she started talking to all these men on dateing websites and going to clubs getting drunk partying. I got jelouse because she said she wasnt over her ex but was flirting with all these guys she even kissed a guy. Long story short she developed feelings for another guy that used her for a position at her job. She told me about it and I supported her as usual while all of a sudden we started to get close and then she kept talking to more of these guys and even accidently sent me a topless pic meant for another guy which she admited to. We fought almost everyday and I told her how much she broke my heart and she always was so cruel about it. In the mist of this my friend died and she wanted to come over to comfort me well this turned into her texting yet another man the whole time she was with me. Finally we fought and I said I hated her and how she made me miserable it killed me inside. So here I am its been a month since I have spoken to her and I dont understand how she could be so cruel and not understand me. I think about her every single day to the point I wake up at 1:00am in the morning and just roam the street. I am so unhappy I stopped takeing wedding photography because of how bitter I am. Anytime I see a preposal or couple kissing on tv I get angry. My friends are starting to turn their back on me, and I habe tried to commit suicide twice. How do I let her go how do I get my life back? I'm not good looking I cant go find anyone else I just want to be happy. I heard through my mom whom she has on facebook that someone broke her window and has been stalking her and I am worried to the point I wish I could protect her but the other part of me just wants to let go of her and forget her existence. How do I forget about 15 years? Please help I dont want to love her anymore. :(
EverLastluv Posted June 5, 2014 Posted June 5, 2014 I am pretty sure every one goes through the same in life with relationship . I had my share my self where love just hurts sooo much its soo hard to get out of that dark lonley conrner. In cases like this, turn to God! He would help you, NO one else can help! From my experiance I look to God to show me the way to happiness. Once you belife in God you would start loving your self and thank God for your creation and to keep in mind there is lots of other people is going through worst than you are. LOVE your self, thats most Important! Then you will see for your self that the people who you chose to love is not loving you fairly. You will walk away. Once you close one door another will open. Bless your heart. 1
Author Timmy1992 Posted June 6, 2014 Author Posted June 6, 2014 Its just so hard I feel so bitter inside.
EverLastluv Posted June 6, 2014 Posted June 6, 2014 (edited) Its just so hard I feel so bitter inside. start loving yourself and thanking God every day you will feel better. Dont give up faith! everything will work out in due time. Edited June 6, 2014 by EverLastluv
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