Fosters Posted June 3, 2014 Posted June 3, 2014 This may be long, I am sorry... Ok so me and my Girlfriend split up nearly 2 months ago and I haven't gone with the NC rule I tried it for 4 days but it just did not work for me and I had to speak to her :/ When we first met I knew she was the one, I fell madly and deeply in love with her and her me, We are the love of each others lives. So a few blissfull months passed and then the arguments started asnd I thought nothing of it at the time. Every couple argues about silly things, right? I have been dealing with problems for a fair few years thanks to a teacher who put me down a killed off all my confidence, said I would never amount to anything etc. and when I met her I thought all those feelings of neglet had gone. But it turns out, I was turning into the nasty horrible person he was.. I pushed out all of my friends in favour of her and everytime I had a problems I could not talk about it but have ago at her, we would argue and I would say some disgusting and foul things to her (I do regret it!!) I made our relationship everything and I know I shouldnt have. So we find out she is suffering with a mental illness which is bad in itself, I couldnt imagine my perfect girl being like that, having something like that. She got really bad and we was arguing ever single weekend. I then thought I would go and get checked out because I did not want to lose her. Turns out I have anger management and the first doctor I saw just laughed at me saying I was stupid. Anyway. After the break up, I did what I thought want right and still try and contact her etc it was silly. I also asked her friends for advice, some where helpful, other played me like a fool and then turned on me calling me every name under the sun. A lot of stuff has happened the most recent is her own brother contacting me (After saying he would batter me if I did not leave his sister alone) saying she has agreed to talk. but I wasnt allowed to bring up the past, giving her speeches about how I had changed & saying how sorry I was, I agreed. I wanted a fresh start with her. He said he wants us to sort it because I was good to her I just needed to get rid of the childish arguments which I agree with. So I said I would leave it the weekend cos I didnt wanna spoil it if she had plans. I phoned her Sunday about half 11. at first she said Who is this, so I said its me ****. and she said I thought we wasnt keeping in contact, That did strike me as weird as if he was kind of taking the piss out of me.. So I said well your brother said you had agreed to talk to me and she said he has tried to convince me. So I said oh ok, Do you want me to go? She didn't say anything. So I said how are you, been upto much etc. She did speak and asked me what I was doing and then she suddenly brough up the past after me saying I would like a fresh start and not talk about the past. I said to her 3 or 4 times "If you want me to go and leave you alone, delete your home number I will do" She ignored me the first few times and the last time I asked all she said was It's upto you... We spoke for a little longer and she asked about a photo I had been tagged in with a girl (Eventhough she had blocked my fb, she saw it through a friends) I explained who she was etc and she said oh I looked and thought I was jealous I said oh right. Then she quickly say but I wasnt jealous. also she said she thinks she is over me (Its my fault to make her think that as I never left her alone...) She was giving me mixed signals for weeks to my friends, saying one day. If he gets the help he needs I will think about giving him a chance. Then two three days later she wants nothing to do with me. There is also a text I sent to her mother because I was really worried about her health and her mental state, She said I was lying to her mum when I have had it confirmed it happened. Sorry if this is all gobbly goop. I just want to know is there still a chance for us, I do love her so much and I am now getting the help I need to get back to myself when I was happy with her..
Chi townD Posted June 3, 2014 Posted June 3, 2014 Yeah, let this one go. She doesn't sound too interested in fixing things and she has a lot of mental health problems to resolve before she's good for anyone. But here's the rub. She's going to have to do that for herself. No one can help her with that. She's going to want to do that on her own. Plus, you stated that you have anger issues. You went to your doctor about it and he just laughed you off. Okay, then go straight to a counselor. Look them up online. Look at their reviews and pick one that is best suited for your needs. So, take care of that. Fix what you know you can fix right now. And that's yourself.
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