Sex-with-Ex Fantasies

[Zapbasket]

I have not had any romantic or even romantically tinged physical contact since my ex and I last had sex, on Saturday, August 18, 2013, six days before we broke up.

 

In my grief over these months sometimes it has seemed as though my sexuality, like an old cat, has disappeared into the woods somewhere to die. In the first months after the break-up, I'd have sexual fantasies and inevitably they were with my ex, and they'd always make me cry in the end.

 

Now that the weather is beautiful, my sexual deprivation has piqued. I try to engage in sexual fantasies about men constructed by my imagination, but inevitably my mind drifts back to my ex and the fantasy becomes sex with him. I am embarrassed to admit this but when I found out my ex was on a dating site, it made me so hot and bothered to think of him having sex possibly for the first time after we last slept together. Just the other day I had a fantasy of calling my ex and suggesting we just get together to have sex (TOTAL FANTASY. I WOULD NEVER DO THAT FOR REAL).

 

Can anyone relate? I'm not interested in going out and having a fling to shake these fantasies, but I do feel strange being so sexually aroused by the thought of sleeping with someone who hurt and disappointed me so deeply.

[oracle]

Its natural.

 

The hottest guy is usually that one that is waving goodbye.

 

You want what you can't easily have, or have at all

[somedude81]

GreenCove I know exactly how you feel.

 

My ex dumped me back in December and I haven't even even kissed another woman since then.

 

She is always in the back of my mind and I know that if I were to masturbate without using porn, I will fantasize about having sex with her. I also know that it will make me feel absolutely horrible. So In the six months since I've been dumped, I've only masturbated using porn, and half the time I think of her anyways. Every now and then I actually break down into tears after my orgasm. It's such a weird feeling.