Brutus Posted May 22, 2014 Posted May 22, 2014 I was doing quite well in the last week. Until this evening... I was just watching a movie, carefully chosen for the lack of any romance in it: "One flew over the cuckoo's nest". When suddenly, with no apparent reason, there she is, a picture in my mind, naked on the bed, half-wrapped in the white sheets, looking just like an Ingre's painting. Now this image is stuck in my head and fills me with despair. I wish I could see her like that again, lean over her soft skin, kiss her and run my hand along her long legs. Just like I used to do. Ah, relapses are so painful... how do you deal with such situations?
stillfiguringitallou Posted May 23, 2014 Posted May 23, 2014 Just breathe. I allow myself to feel those moments - cry a moment - remember it and grieve it. Then I just do some deep breathing - and let it go. (HUGS)
Author Brutus Posted May 23, 2014 Author Posted May 23, 2014 Sometimes I wish it were like a computer, just delete. Like in the movie Eternal sunshine of a spotless mind. Why do beautiful memories hurt so badly? 1
STM206 Posted May 24, 2014 Posted May 24, 2014 I wish I knew the answer, I really do. I felt like I was doing so well this week and then today felt so lonely and sad again. It's the reality of everything setting in I think... the "knowing" that what's in the past will forever remain in the past. I keep telling myself over and over - this will pass, you won't feel like this forever but dammit it sure doesn't feel like that in the moment. 1
Alcatraz Posted May 24, 2014 Posted May 24, 2014 My favourite time is when I'm falling asleep. My mind wanders, thinks about other things. Totally forget about her. That and about the 10 seconds after I've woke up. I don't think about her. Ahh, to sleep forever.
learning_slowly Posted May 24, 2014 Posted May 24, 2014 It's tough, but you need to accept that was the past and do something to take your mind off it, then you can meet someone new to think about
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