blind_otter Posted February 9, 2005 Posted February 9, 2005 I got the call I knew I would get, from my ex's mother - it's actually not legal for her to talk to me, but I did anyways. I was like, "Why are you calling me, C?" She said she wanted to let me know that she had revoked his bond and sent my ex back to jail. I said, "Well, that's the best news I've had in a while, to be honest with you." I don't even know why she called me for comfort or absolution, I offered none. She cried and wondered if she had done something, I said, most likely, but it's spilt milk now. I told her that I felt bad for her, that I knew she was probably suffering a lot and feeling guilty, but that it's best that he remain in jail until the hearing and it's safer for everyone. He has so many criminal charges against him - robbery, felony posession of cocaine, burglary with battery from when he broke into my house... She had just found out the plea the state attorney is offering and was quite hysterically upset. The only thing I said was that I ask that she try her best to get her son to accept the plea bargain because I don't want to go through a trial, and he probably doesn't want a longer sentance than the 10 years they offered him. Made me upset, to talk to her, though. I was shaking during the conversation. I don't want him, at all, honestly I hope he rots in prison for the next 8 1/2 years remembering what an a**h*** he was to me. I want him to be alone, and sad, and regret everything he did. He won't, his mother went on and on about how he has no remorse and takes no responsibility for his actions - to me that sounds like he really should just be locked up and put away from society. Sucks that he'll never be able to understand what a f*ckhead he was. I guess I was trying to be optimistic and think the best but in the end, some people really are just bad seeds.
Gala Posted February 9, 2005 Posted February 9, 2005 Wow...it was the call you thought you'd get -- except that I think you were afraid his mother would call to harangue and harass you...it's a pretty bad sign if your own mother revokes your bond, I'd say. I hope this gives you the relief you've sought, Otter.
Author blind_otter Posted February 9, 2005 Author Posted February 9, 2005 My friend T came over last night to cuddle again. He called me at like 4:30am bitching that he couldn't sleep. I said, well you can sleep here if you want but I'm not doing anything other than sleeping, doofy. I was out of it (he has a key so he let himself and his dog in, let my dogs outside for a bit, then got into bed with me and put the TV on.). I can sleep with the TV on so I dozed, he talked a little bit but was mostly just wasted and depressed. I dreamt that my ex was in bed next to me, trying to have sex, and I said no and felt a very deep sensation of sadness, like I finally let go of something I was still holding on to. I'm still angry. I feel like I wasted the last year of my life. He is the only person I've ever met who I can honestly say I really wish I could erase from my past.
tattoomytoe Posted February 9, 2005 Posted February 9, 2005 Finally! you can move on some more and feel safe doing so!
ion Posted February 9, 2005 Posted February 9, 2005 After reading your update Blind Otter, I admit to wondering if Mr.T will make a move now that the danger has passed.
Author blind_otter Posted February 9, 2005 Author Posted February 9, 2005 Originally posted by ion After reading your update Blind Otter, I admit to wondering if Mr.T will make a move now that the danger has passed. I sincerely hope not. I dearly love my pussycat, Mr. T, but we are both waaaaaaaaaaaaay to f*cked up to be in a relationship, especially with each other. I wish it could be like that, but it can't.
soosad Posted February 9, 2005 Posted February 9, 2005 I want him to be alone, and sad, and regret everything he did. He won't, his mother went on and on about how he has no remorse and takes no responsibility for his actions - to me that sounds like he really should just be locked up and put away from society. Don't kid yourself he will be alone, sad and regret everything he did. He'll have plenty of time to think about his mistakes and what could have been. soosad
Author blind_otter Posted February 9, 2005 Author Posted February 9, 2005 She was crying about how "he's been doing so good" - for how long? A week. He got a new job and everything. Hah. I said, wow, he might possibly have done well for maybe an additional 2 weeks or so, jeez. Maybe all the daily drinking and weekly binges helped him not think about stuff. He'll be damn sober in prison though.
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