amtz Posted May 14, 2014 Posted May 14, 2014 Hi everybody! It's been a while since I last visited this holy grail basically due major self-improvements and getting over the EX... Or so I believe! Long story short since my story is pretty well documented on this awesome place! The EX and 1 where together for EXACTLY one year... We broke of do to being so toxic and she presented a huge BPD syndrome! Gotta say it has been by far the worst split, the worst holiday season and by far a very dark place in time for me. After talking for the sealing the EX cam back! How cool is that! Well it only lasted for a month and god I regret how easily I took her back! BEWARE FOR WHAT YOU WISH FOR! Basically she was the same bit^h that always was right and I was wrong! This time I didn't even let myself cope! I grew a pair and focused ON ME! I joined a gym (Lost 10 lbs since march) bought myself a beautiful lady (Suzuki GSXR 750) joined a MC, spent extra time with nice people and foremost maintained a POSITIVE ATTITUDE! I had enough of that sick person! Yesterday while a very busy day at the office (AMEN FOR THAT!) I was listening to music on my phone and from time to time the music would cut off do to FB messages... After an hour or so I finally opened FB AND GUESS WHAT!!?? My EX sent me a MSG basically saying: I have been thinking of you this past days, perhaps you are surprised that I wrote to you. Keep in mind I love you so much and I will always remember you for the good times. Just wanted to say good-bye since we never set closure the proper way, hope you find someone that is worth while. You deserve it! Good bye Mistakenly I responded! I hope you the best! Wish you the best of luck in every aspect of your life! Say high to your kid! In this life or the following we might bump to each other! Take care... After that she just responded in a phrase or two how much her kid has grown and after that it was all.. I'm not going to even ask even though I want to why she did that... All I knew she is like a vice to me! Toxic and cant control it (her) she only f8cks things up for me PERIOD. What I do want to know is why I felt so miserable? I wept while driving home like if it was day one, today I have felt mostly sad, confused, hoping I want to let it all out and have a good cry!! Early in the morning I felt no hope, all the motivation I felt was gone! Hope my thread doesn't bore you! I have managed to talk myself out of it, but in this very moment I feel miserable! Thanks in advance!
saltyfishhead666 Posted May 14, 2014 Posted May 14, 2014 Hi everybody! It's been a while since I last visited this holy grail basically due major self-improvements and getting over the EX... Or so I believe! Long story short since my story is pretty well documented on this awesome place! The EX and 1 where together for EXACTLY one year... We broke of do to being so toxic and she presented a huge BPD syndrome! Gotta say it has been by far the worst split, the worst holiday season and by far a very dark place in time for me. After talking for the sealing the EX cam back! How cool is that! Well it only lasted for a month and god I regret how easily I took her back! BEWARE FOR WHAT YOU WISH FOR! Basically she was the same bit^h that always was right and I was wrong! This time I didn't even let myself cope! I grew a pair and focused ON ME! I joined a gym (Lost 10 lbs since march) bought myself a beautiful lady (Suzuki GSXR 750) joined a MC, spent extra time with nice people and foremost maintained a POSITIVE ATTITUDE! I had enough of that sick person! Yesterday while a very busy day at the office (AMEN FOR THAT!) I was listening to music on my phone and from time to time the music would cut off do to FB messages... After an hour or so I finally opened FB AND GUESS WHAT!!?? My EX sent me a MSG basically saying: I have been thinking of you this past days, perhaps you are surprised that I wrote to you. Keep in mind I love you so much and I will always remember you for the good times. Just wanted to say good-bye since we never set closure the proper way, hope you find someone that is worth while. You deserve it! Good bye Mistakenly I responded! I hope you the best! Wish you the best of luck in every aspect of your life! Say high to your kid! In this life or the following we might bump to each other! Take care... After that she just responded in a phrase or two how much her kid has grown and after that it was all.. I'm not going to even ask even though I want to why she did that... All I knew she is like a vice to me! Toxic and cant control it (her) she only f8cks things up for me PERIOD. What I do want to know is why I felt so miserable? I wept while driving home like if it was day one, today I have felt mostly sad, confused, hoping I want to let it all out and have a good cry!! Early in the morning I felt no hope, all the motivation I felt was gone! Hope my thread doesn't bore you! I have managed to talk myself out of it, but in this very moment I feel miserable! Thanks in advance! You seemed fine before she messaged you - so block her. You may be miserable now, I would be if my ex sent me messages around the break up so you have to make sure she can't send you those. It's not your fault she's got "issues" those are her issues not yours. You are done, be done. Everyone has set backs, I know I did. You are human. However you can't allow someone to hold you back. It's your time to shine now 1
elseaacych Posted May 14, 2014 Posted May 14, 2014 It doesn't matter how broken or sick your ex was. You still loved her in spite of it. However, even though you know you two are not meant to be, hearing from her still hurts in a way because you can never go back to the good times and the way things are now are far from where you wanted them to be. You're struggling because there's a dichotomy of feelings: being set free from a toxic relationship (good) battles the sadness of the break up (bad). Reality is, you're better off. You know it. You just have to keep going. Let yourself feel but don't get sucked into it. 2
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