ex ended it for good, is there a chance we can get back together

[rdons1]

We are eachothers first loves.We broke up a little over a month ago. Our breakup was based around her thinking I didn't care. I would do stupid thinks like "like" girls pictures on instagram and a bunch a small stuff like that that jut added up and she had enough. After the breakup we still talked a lot and even hung out occasionally .We often joked about how it feels like we didn't even break up so I wasn't really worried I just figured wed get back together. We wouldn't talk for a week then she would contact me and wed talk for a couple days then wouldn't talk for another week and shed contact me again. I asked for another chance numerous time but she said she didn't know what she wants.

 

Then a couple days ago she was ready to give me a chance. For the first time since the breakup she was talking to me like when we were dating again, usually she would be kind of cold and distant towards me. She was telling me how much she misses me, she told me about the guys she hooked up with while we were broken up with and apologized begging me not to be mad at her, and it was the day before my birthday so she was saying stuff like "Im seeing you tomorrow idc what you say".Then she texted me a happy face emoji going "this is me when im with you" then a sad face emoji and said "this is me when im not with you" .I also explained to her how I hooked up with a girl from my work and she jokingly said, "who the **** is she ill come in and kill her". Also she was begging me to never have another girlfriend ever and to never get married. Obviously she didn't mean all these things 100 percent she wouldn't actually kill the girl but from what she is saying it was so obvious to me that she loved me.

 

The next day she found out about how I messaged a girl on twitter about a week ago while me and her hadn't been talking. It made her especially mad because this was one of the girls who she got mad at me for liking her picture. At this point she told me she's done, she thought I changed but she was wrong. My problem with all this is I don't get how she can go from wanting to give me another chance and saying how much she misses me and all that other stuff to telling me she doesn't want to be with me anymore and doesn't have the same feelings for me all because of messaging someone.

 

A couple hours after the breakup she contacted me through text message saying "I really am sorry n im gunna miss you baby I doubt well never see eachother again but until then xo". After receiving this I asked if we could just talk one more time. For the first time I really showed her how much I care and poured my heart out to her about how much I love her n how much she means to me. I started crying and she even started crying a little too. I know your not supposed to cry to an ex but I just really had to show her that I do care because she always thought I didn't. She explained how when we originally broke up she was so upset but eventually grew out of it but still loves me and always will love me and how if I said this a couple weeks ago everything would be different. That did not make sense to me because if she was grown out of it why would she be saying how she how much she misses me and how badly she wants to see me a little over a day ago. Also she kept kissing me numerous times throughout our talk and telling me how she hates seeing me like this but she's glad to see that I actually care and when I dropped her off gave me a kiss goodbye .

 

I feel like these are just temporary feelings for her because of how quickly she went from wanting to give me a chance to being completely done. She always contacted me or did things to get my attention whenever we wouldn't talk for a little before so I believe that that will still happen if she truly does love me, which I know she does .I just want to know if anyone agrees with me that these are just temporary feelings and if this is a salvageable relationship

Edited May 9, 2014 by rdons1

[Strength in Healing]

Sounds like you two are very young.

 

Neither of you were happy in the relationship, thus why you were hooking up with other people and such.

 

Let it go brother, this was toxic.