rizzban29 Posted May 7, 2014 Posted May 7, 2014 There has been an anxiety building up in me. At the time of meeting my girl, I had plans to go visit many countries, and basically go on a self-determined journey. One thing led to another, and I go into the most serious relaitonship of my life, and have seen myself in a different form of self-discovery: the ability to love. So to preface, I have always been the guy jumping relation to relation, enjoying a quick and exciting love life that led my young needs to being satisfied. Well, I thought I had supressed these needs. But I still see other girls and think...wow. My girl got mad at me for looking, and I said Im sorry Im in my 20s its my hormones. So basically, Ive been thinking a lot about just feeling like I need to do things my way and visit countries etc. I didnt necesarrily have the goal of ending it. I told her I had trouble sleeping because this is how I feel and I felt I need to be honest with her. She took this as we were breaking up. She told me she needed time to think about things. And to be honest Ive brought this up several times before. We then proceeded to talk for hours about life and relationships. And we agreed that my struggle to be able to stay in one place and just love and be happy stems from the lack of it therefore from my parents, which is possible. So anyway, here we are days later. I am happy because I am in peace, and I am at peace with what she decides to do with the relationship. I am trying not to look at other girls. But it feels weird though... because normally that kind of talk ends a relationship. I feel in a weird place right now... any ideas? This sounds like a random ramble with no structure, but if anyone has insight thats cool. But at the end of the day, I feel happy now that I am in peace and have shared my feelings (minus the one that I am really attracted to other girls too)
Author rizzban29 Posted May 8, 2014 Author Posted May 8, 2014 anyone got any advice please? thanks a lot
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