Radu Posted May 6, 2014 Posted May 6, 2014 Hi again.. SAME girl, for those that remember me. Yes, it's a bad relationship. She wants me when she needs me, then pushes me away, but still expects me to be there. Only way I can describe that situation. Search me for my recent posts. She's been toxic and hurt me... a lot. Somehow, I'm still with her... Anyhow. The story is short. A week ago, I took her to a graduate ball.. black tie affair. It was nice. I learned of a yacht cruise for her program. Tickets were apparently only open to the grad students at first. When she went to look the next day (after I found out from her friend - she was there when her friend asked if I were going...) tickets were sold out. She made no effort to want to bring me, I feel. I didn't tell her that. I found out her friends all got tickets for their boyfriends. I know one of her friends, who thinks I'm awesome.. so I know she isn't cheating, because if she took another guy - I would've found out. ...anyhow, she went to the party. I reluctantly gave her my blessing, but still gave it. She said thanks and went. I was really disappointed she didn't want me going. Then while she's there she let me know she missed me and loved me. In my head, not good enough. this girl has been messing with my head for 2 years now. It's talking about a future, then no future... then moving in, then no more.... So I decided I'll go away and visit my old med school. Friday night comes, she kind of gets annoyed and blows me off via text. Saturday comes.. I am going to head out early... I figure she was going to study with one of her class mates and she knows I'm away.. I'll send her a have a good day text. The bad news. I left my phone sitting on the bed and left for the day. I didn't realize it was gone til I was downtown already and was out with people. I didn't respond to her for 12 hours... and she panicked. She called my parents... went to my brother and wife's place freaking out, thinking I was dead... she called the police. I got home after a nice, long, eventful day... to see the horror of what she had done. I called her immediately. I told her I'm sorry, I left my phone home by accident... she was crying and screaming. I'm an ******* apparently because I made NO effort to contact her that day, not by someone else's phone or email... Granted, I can accept I made a fkup by not contacting her, but her nature of pushing me away.. wanting to be alone, I honestly didn't think it was a big deal? Again, we're talking about a girl who one night will go out for a night on the town with me in black tie attire, and the next morning at 8am tell me to go home because she wants space, after 2 years of ups and downs, but she still loves me. ugh Why am I in the wrong because I failed to check in for 12-14 hours on one day out of the 2 years we've been together. I generally don't say this outright because it's not something to throw around casually ... but look up Borderline Personality Disorder and especially Hot/Cold behaviour associated with it. I'm not saying she is one [probably isn't], but maybe you will see how dysfunctional your 'relationship' truly is.
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