halfalive Posted May 1, 2014 Posted May 1, 2014 Hey all - I haven't been here in a couple of months because...well, I didn't need to be! I always miss my exMM, but it's been manageable enough that I've been able to place it on the backburner. Well, I had one of those vivid dreams about him last night and I feel like crap today. What's the first thing I do when I get to work? Google the address that exMM and his (now) exwife used to live at. I don't know why on earth I did it, I just did. And I found that she had listed it for sale with all sorts of pictures of the house. I'd never seen the inside of their house. Now I am looking through these pictures realizing, "That is where he would text me from", "That is where he would tell me about watching movies and reading my emails.", "That's their bed where they slept." And looking at their kids rooms....wow, what a ****ty feeling. And tomorrow will be one year from the first time we slept together.
Waverly Posted May 1, 2014 Posted May 1, 2014 And I found that she had listed it for sale with all sorts of pictures of the house. I'd never seen the inside of their house. Now I am looking through these pictures realizing, "That is where he would text me from", "That is where he would tell me about watching movies and reading my emails.", "That's their bed where they slept." And looking at their kids rooms....wow, what a ****ty feeling. I have done this... and it is not a fun feeling. My xAP and his wife sold their house a few months ago, and I totally tortured myself more than once by looking at all of the photos. NOT a good idea (but I know you know that). I hope you get through tomorrow and can start to put this behind you again. It sounds like you've made a lot of progress over the past few months. This is just a minor setback.
Goodbye Posted May 1, 2014 Posted May 1, 2014 This has happened to me. I feel like I'm healing, not obsessing over him, moving on and then BAM; something triggers a vivid dream and I go back to thinking about him. The subconscious can certainly work against us some days.
Author halfalive Posted May 1, 2014 Author Posted May 1, 2014 Thanks, guys. These are the days when I wish he would contact me....but in the end, I know it would lead to more heartache. To a better tomorrow!
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