if I told you I knew better...

[Sleepwalkers Seeker]

Well, here goes nothing. I was married for 5 yrs give or take a day. After my separation I waited for over a year to have things work out. Obviously they didn't. I waited 6 more months and I started talking to people online. Well, I met several women, one has turned out a really good friend the others were off a bit. I ran into pics of this awesome chic. I was sorta scared to date some one like that, tattoos, was in a band as the rhythm guitarist, seemed sorta not my deal(I'm a homebody that likes foreign flicks) anyway, I met her fir the first time in person. She was 5'9" and 113 lbs pounds soaking wet holding a brick. I looked past that as I'm no looker. We had conversation or tried to but it seemed she was all about the conquest. She kept asking when we were gonna make out...red flag number 1...emotional maturity of a teenager. I fed her dinner, we talked a little more. She disclosed her secrets,(she has slept with over 300 women and several men including her drug dealer-not for drugs but out of boredom), she had held up two stores to feed her heroin addiction. Which she was now in recovery for. I was also in recovery for addiction to rx pills and alcohol. So I didn't judge. I simply listed. By the end of the night when I said good night and she asked for a kiss I reluctantly kissed her but I did. She went home. Next day from work I told her it wasn't a good idea to keep dating. We just weren't meant to be. She kept insisting we would be ok. I yielded....yes...I went with it. I dated her a little more and I thought it wasn't fair to not give it a full chance. I sat her down and told her, "I'm going to allow myself to love you." And she said she lived me etc. Long story short because I had screwed up so many times before with my wife I wanted to make it all up to this one. About two months into her moving in, I found her at three am telling me she was going to shoot up something she had downloaded on her phone. When I asked what she was on she said"nothing". I found a huge amount of drugs on her "meth" and when I went to get the rest of it from her pocket my ass wound up on the floor. That was two deal breakers in one. Next I found her stuffing more drugs down her pant legs a few weeks later. Wii lite this is long..I'll finish it later but there is so much more there.