Solcita2 Posted April 30, 2014 Posted April 30, 2014 I really didn't think I'd be back here so fast. When I read the post of people with their SO in town anticipating the separation weeks before the SO goes back home I get surprised because I always thought you'd have to spend until the last minute with them enjoying and not thinking about the future pain of separation. We started having a hard time one week before his departure. But oh boy, yesterday was HARD. We worked until the last minute before going to the airport. Saying goodbye was harder than I ever anticipated. I think I never saw him cry that much, even when 13 months ago I was the one leaving home. When he entered the gate I just went back to the train station even when the train didn't leave for another hour. I was able to keep myself together until I arrived in a station we were just the day before together... and I saw a couple. He was carrying a bag with a huge teddy bear he got in a machine... the same machine where my SO and I tried to get a teddy bear the night before. I couldn't help it. I lost it. Coming back to an empty house was so hard (I moved to this house the day he arrived, so it's the first time I'm alone here. We put this house together as well... so everything here represents him). Today I took the day off to get the house in order, but obviously didn't do much. I still have little attacks of sorrow, althought I think I'm doing pretty much ok. He's still traveling... can't wait to see him again 1
d0nnivain Posted April 30, 2014 Posted April 30, 2014 The seperations are always the hardest. Give yourself the day to wallow then focus on the next time you will be together.
missunshine Posted April 30, 2014 Posted April 30, 2014 I liked your message because it is sooooooooo nice to see that actually a LDR is going the right path. as far as the distance now, I can only imagine how hard it must be, for both of you. but I can see that your relationship is on the right track (you are even having a house together:)) and so you shouldn't worry too much cause time passes quickly and in no time, you will see him again and get to be with him! in the mean time, you will do what you used to do before when you were far from each other. I wish you all the luck, and hope one day there will be no more goodbyes for you.
Author Solcita2 Posted May 3, 2014 Author Posted May 3, 2014 Thank you girls for your replies... OMG... the two first days were horrible. Thanks God I'm super busy so I haven't had much time alone at home... which is the hardest part. Now I've been in the house the entire day and I've been cleaning and taking the summer clothes out and so on... so I've been busy! In the other hand, he arrived back home and found our cats nearly destroyed it... and our friend, the one who was supposed to take care of them, just laughing at the fact that they ate all the plants (including a 20 year-old bonsai his father gave us) and thew it out all over the house... He was very overwhelmed by the state of the house... He will be doing the harder job now. I hope he's strong enough to do so. I'll try to be there for him as much as I can Thank you girls for your words! And OH! I forgot to mention, in this visit (his first since I left home a year ago) we tied the knot!!
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