PatrickS Posted April 28, 2014 Posted April 28, 2014 Well i met a girl around christmas time and we both attend the same university together, we also live at the same accomodation. Just a flat across the courtyard. She was instantly fond of me completely, she literally did everything for me because she liked me so much. At the time i did like her to but didn't really know what i wanted. She started telling me she loved me very early on, probably about a month or two into the relationship. About a month or so a go is when i fell in love with her. We have been extremely happy together but we have also had our stupid typical arguments over stupid things where will will make up again straight away after. Basically i have a few issues as ive struggled with anxiety etc, results from a previous relationship a few years ago. And it sometimes makes me worry about her when she goes out on the town etc. We've basically spent every day together since around christmas which i completely understand is not healthy in a relationship. Basically on Saturday night she went to a friends party where drugs were going to be involved, she said she wouldnt take anything as its not something id want my girlfriend to do, which she didnt. BUT i dropped her off to this party in a nearby city and she told me not to worry she will let me know when to pick her up and that she would not stay the night at this apartment where her friends are because she wanted to come home with me. It was an apartment with literally 4 girls and about 20 blokes so that worried me a bit, but i didnt mention that to her. I dropped her off and told her to be safe. I got home! received a few texts off her and the last text i received was her saying she had just got to the club at 12.30am. so i was guessing id probably pick her up in a couple of hours. After that i heard NOTHING all night. i waited up all night waiting because i knew i had to pick her up. It hit 4.30 am and i was genuinely worried for her and her wellbeing because she would always contact me etc. Soooo a stupid mistake i made i rang her mom and told her i was worried about her. The thing is i wouldnt have been worried if shed told me she was staying the night its just because i hadnt heard a thing from her for 4 hours about me picking her up etc. She rang me at 5.am and she was wasted drunk. She was fuming that id rang her mom and ended up staying the night there. The next day she was mad all day saying she needs time to think about us which hurt me quite bad. I saw her in the evening because she was getting her mom to pick her up and shes gone to stay there for a few days. But she was crying her eyes out before she left saying shes just completely confused and feels smothered and feels like shes losing herself (i completely understand why she does, i have done some stupid controlling **** not intentionally but im not proud of) So she left with her mom and im literally just waiting now to see what her decision is on us.. What do i do? i know i need to give her the space and time. She does completely love me to pieces as well still. Its also not just because of that night when i rang her mom shes mad she just said thats what blew her off as a result of other smaller things ive done. I understand i have insecurity issues and ive told her i will work on them for her. Do i just give her the time and space now and just let her decide? Its not a situation i like being in at all. I love her to pieces and i know she loves me too pieces. (sorry about the **** grammar etc, was rushing)
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