Alcatraz Posted April 24, 2014 Posted April 24, 2014 I have used this forum for advice in the past and it helped. Just being able to talk to someone about it helps. Unfortunately I don't feel that I have anyone to talk to in person about it. Maybe it's a pride thing, I don't know. Broke up with girlfriend of over a year this past weekend. Her idea. I hoped that it was just an unthought about thing and that the next day we'd be ok but we haven't spoke since. I have a horrible feeling that she has been seeing this guy that she went on a date with when we were on a break about Christmas time. I've hated the guy since, can't stand him, and the thought of her with someone else, nevermind him, makes me sick and angry. She blamed the breakup on reasons like "I don't think you're willing to give me what I want", most likely speaking about moving in with her. Admittedly moving in with her hasn't been a priority of mine over the relationship, we're both mid twenties and its not something I can afford right now. I just feel that my reluctancy to make the relationship too serious in the early stages has came back to haunt me. Like its role reversal, she gives it her all in the beginning and I don't, now I'm ready to do it seriously she has gone off the idea. Like I said I've been here for advice before. A break up from several years ago which was very tough and ultimately lead to medical help. I can't remember how long specifically the depression lasted for from that relationship, months maybe, I've tried to blank it from my memory. But I know it's something that I'd never want to experience again. Yet I fear I am going to feel it again. I know it's the wrong thing to do but I can't help but go on her Facebook page and Instagram etc. (we're still friends on there) just to see how she is coping, to see what she's doing, to see if she posts anything that would hint that she wanted me to contact her. Last night I saw a post saying that she'd been with this datee from over the Christmas period. I was physically sick. I can't find any joy in anything. All I want to do is sleep although sometimes I just end up dreaming about her. I can't eat and I can't think about anything else. I need help. Advice. Anything. I appreciate anyone who has taken the time to read this.
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