Living with your ex

[Ameee]

My ex fiancé and I have been going through a very rocky road these past few months. He distanced himself from me and I had suspected he was having an emotional affair w someone at work. Turns out he was and I caught them on a date together and then this past sat friends of mine walked into the bar that he works at and of course she was there while I was home playing Easter bunny for our six yr old. All he could ever say was that he doesn't know what he wants and he doesn't know what his feelings are for me anymore. I went through something similar from end of 2012 to mid 2013. I was straight forward though and told him we couldn't be together right now. Although mine was due to him emotionally neglecting me and him drinking too much. I stupidly had a 1 night stand that I will regret for eternity. Through out that time period we lived together and functioned well still as a family. He would of done anything to get me back. Now the tables have turned and I have been the one chasing him. I begged cried pleaded fought and obviously nothing helped. Only pushed us further apart. I had been planning on taking our daughter and moving in w my parents but I just couldn't. They are serious hoarders and I don't want to go into a more stressful environment. So after telling him I was going to leave I then told him that I needed to stay. Which I'm sure he prefers bc he can not afford the house on his own and it's less expensive for me to live here until I get myself on my feet. So I told him I am done cooking for him and doing his laundry and all the other things that I do for him. Also we are now on a schedule where every other day one of us is home w our daughter and one of us goes out. We are also alternating sleeping in the bed and couch. We didn't say much to each other the past two days. I was too angry to even look at him. I'm trying to be positive about being single and being able to only have to answer to myself. Unfortunately right now we don't have any other options. I am working hard towards being able to have my own place w my daughter but that is going to take a long while. This morning I just simply said to him that I think that he may be right about us, but for now since the best living situation for us is together, I don't want to walk around hating each other. We are balancing on a very thin line right now. I know a lot of people talk about no contact but that's hard when your living together. Any advice on how I should act around him? I would like to move forward in my life and experience new things and get on w it, but I also don't want to destroy anything with him just in case he decides he wants to catch up.