Author Jordvn Posted April 15, 2014 Author Posted April 15, 2014 No no! 'Rude' is good! 'Rude' is angry! Which means that all this talk about suicide is just emotional venting. Jordvn has absolutely no intention whatsoever of committing suicide, and never did have. But he IS hopping mad. And touching a nerve like that shows he still has enough vigour in his veins to keep going. So, that outburst is actually a point in his favour. it shows he can still get agitated enough to go on the defence. And no suicide potential ever goes on the defence. They can't be asked. Jordvn - CAN be asked. That's a positive sign. it's a sign he gives enough of a damn to keep fighting. thats right. i'm just having THOUGHTS. i'm not actually cutting myself or any of that. i am trying to fight these feelings. my ex said i'm a fighter, that i don't give up. too bad she's forcing me to give up though.
Chi townD Posted April 15, 2014 Posted April 15, 2014 thats right. i'm just having THOUGHTS. i'm not actually cutting myself or any of that. i am trying to fight these feelings. my ex said i'm a fighter, that i don't give up. too bad she's forcing me to give up though. Yeah, well....don't give up on yourself. I stand by what I said and I seriously hope you seek individual counseling.
KaliLove Posted April 15, 2014 Posted April 15, 2014 You cannot fight for someone to love you. If she doesn't want you, she doesn't want you and nothing you say or do is going to change that. Sorry, but that's life. Besides, why would you want someone who you had to convince to love you instead of someone who just does? Anger is good (though I do think that poster was over the top in his or her rudeness), I'm glad something was able to provoke you to have an emotion besides sadness. That's a good sign. Have you spoken to a doctor yet? That is very important. 1
TaraMaiden Posted April 15, 2014 Posted April 15, 2014 thats right. i'm just having THOUGHTS. i'm not actually cutting myself or any of that. i am trying to fight these feelings. my ex said i'm a fighter, that i don't give up. too bad she's forcing me to give up though. She's not forcing you to do anything. Get this, friend: You are making the choice, she hasn't made any such proposal to you. you have taken this situation, and concluded this avenue all by yourself. This is the option you have given yourself. But happily, as each day goes past, you become less and less inclined to do the foolish final thing, and more and more inclined to 'fight back'. Carry on.... 1
Author Jordvn Posted April 15, 2014 Author Posted April 15, 2014 I guess there's no one to blame but myself. When me and my ex last talked she said something like "I also broke up to see if you can make it without me, because a person who is solid with themselves will be solid in a relationship. I was hoping you'd change my mind." I come off as non of that now she's gone
KaliLove Posted April 15, 2014 Posted April 15, 2014 She's not wrong. It sounds like you were entirely too dependent on her. You cannot depend on another person for your happiness. Not only is it not healthy for you, but it's VERY unfair to them. Can you imagine how much pressure she must have felt knowing that she was your entire world? You MUST move on and heal yourself. Get thee to a therapist, quickly. 1
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