AFineFrenzy Posted April 14, 2014 Posted April 14, 2014 Hi, I've been a lurker here and I thought by now I'd be over this. I met a guy last year and I instantly fell in love. He fell in love with me -or so I thought. He became everything to me very quickly. I know how naive I was, but I really thought he was the one. You know they say where you're in love and you've found the one, you know. And I knew. He was my first boyfriend, first kiss, first everything. I'm 18, so I was kind of a late bloomer. His only friends we're me and three of my other friends. He told me the usual stuff about forever and everything. I really thought he meant it all. I got pregnant mid way through the relationship. PLEASE DON'T READ ANY FURTHER IF YOU'RE GOING TO BE JUDGMENTAL. We had talked about what we'd do in a situation like this and I planned to have an abortion. I didn't tell him though, because I didn't want him to worry. Well, this girl, who I'll call Jess moved in with one of my close friends. She dated two or three guys within two months of arriving. Then I found out from my friend, she liked my boyfriend. I thought I had nothing to worry about. I confronted him about it and he said, "I've only known her a day or two. Don't worry about it." So, I didn't. Well within a six days, I found out he had been holding hands with her at a school function. I asked him about and he broke down crying on me and said he felt so bad but we couldn't continue as we were as he decided to date her. I had the abortion the next week by myself. He never knew. They moved in together two months later, after she got kicked out of my friend's house. He completely changed, he hates all of my friends now, who were originally his only friends. We went from texting 24/7 to him forgetting I existed. I spent quite a few months acting desperate and making a fool of myself. Just last month I told him about the abortion, at first he was so nice and we even picked out a name for what would've been our child. A couple weeks later, he told me he never cared about it and was only pretending to make me feel better. That was the final straw. I know I've been dumb and I keep believing him when he says he stills cares about me and such, when obviously he doesn't. I guess I need to implement NC, but I don't know if I can do it.
bojangles Posted April 14, 2014 Posted April 14, 2014 You can and you will. Anytime you feel it's getting rough, just read some LS stories and know someone else is having the same struggles and you would be telling them to stay strong as well. Or post what you want to say on here or in a diary and read it later but do not send it to him. You are still young at 18 and experiencing one of life's tragic lessons. You will come out of it a better person whether it be 3 months from now or 3 years from now. It's just that being hurt is a part of the deal along the way. 1
David87 Posted April 14, 2014 Posted April 14, 2014 NC is your only option. It hurts I know but the guy is a douchebag.
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