inlin Posted April 12, 2014 Posted April 12, 2014 I'm just writing this so I can get another perspective and to also help me possibly. It was after valentines and we had an awesome time at the aquarium and a delicious dinner. She lost her fav. earring that night and I knew for her bday what to get her. I found and ordered that missing earring online and other sentimental stuff as well that night. The next few days I come over and I see her face and I hear the dreaded words "I don't think we should see each other anymore". It was out of the blue and it ****ing hurt. I asked her why and got lame answers. I got pissed and stormed out. I called my friends and got drunk as ****... I ended up driving back to her place all drunk and crying like a little baby. Asking whats wrong with the relationship?, why?, I've helped you so much with depression and father issues, you never gave me any signals or told me how you felt about our relationship. I couldnt get a straight answers except that its how she feels, or that shes confused, she doesn't want to try and work it out, that she loves me but doesn't know if she does and her "gut feeling". I asked her if there's another guy involved and of course she declined. Who the **** admits it anyways? Within the next 3 weeks I text her asking wtf, why?, whats going on in your head. I get minimal answers and eventually I stop for a bit. I would text her randomly still though. And actually showed up unannounced 2 times (big mistake). My gifts came in finally, 1 day after her bday and I saw her and gave them to her. It was awkward for her, but not for me for some reason. I left because she couldn't handle seeing me. She thanked me for the gifts via text once i left. It was done, I accepted fate that it was officially over.... a few days later she texts me that she knows why she broke up. So we meet up to talk and its because I live at home with my family... I told her I'm moving out after summer anyways, but I dont think she believed me. But whatever, I walk her to her house and she grabs me and kisses me. I couldn't believe it. We talk and walk more and kiss more. As we were working things out she gets sick with the stomach flu. I take care of her for 3 days and take her out once she got better. A few days later I get a text saying that its over basically... I lose my **** at home (was drinking with the buddies). I ****ing fell for it again, I was an idiot. This is the same woman that was needy and always wanted/needed affection. Wanted to marry me, have kids and move out together. We had it all planned out... typical **** eh? She fell in love with me fast... I knew it but I played it cool. I was really into her after we did a 5 month long distance relationship. If we did long distance we can do anything right!? I wasn't a pushover or whipped. We were best friends and lovers... I just don't understand how she can just be so cold and throw me out like that. I've been doing NC, been 2 weeks and I'm so tempted to text her all the time. I write **** into the box and then erase it after. This is a lot harder then I ever thought it would be...
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