stuck in it...

[maxylove]

helloo everyone......

 

i am going to tell you about my relation... i know its going to be long enough to read...but i dnt know how to summarize it..because im so confused and blank and so much in my mind.....sorry for it:(...

 

 

 

 

my best friend...i dnt know when he got too controlling...and my bad luck i was in love with him and guard less...couldn't get myself out ...ahh so painful...he was dominating controlling in every aspects especially in physical touch...he never listened to my no...instead keep on pushing me and pissing me and yelling at me and of course manipulating arguments...why you dnt come to me...tooooooooooo possessive i guess....but trust me this are the traits i am recognizing now...when it was happening to me i was unable to recognize what is he doing...but whatever he is very possessive...says he cant live without me ..says i own u...i have right over you...and i dnt need your permission to touch you because your mine....now im out of love...yelling at him why you did it i trusted you...he is still here wanting to marry him...i remember i felt very hard in love with him..so weak i was selfless and guard less ,he just tortured me like hell....physical mental torture..abusement everything...now he cries he never wanted to hurt me and all he need in this life is me...but i am not in a good condition ..

 

.i feel like i am a mental patient...what has he done....more and more i am getting out of weakness more and more i am feeling tortured....what should i do....i am a very simple girl who believes in true love pure love ,nothing else ....i cant believe this kind of ownership exist in this world...i thought its just in movies...like the one in perfume...but i couldnt recognize it during that time...stupid me...i got myself hurt...but i guess it was too late for me to recognize because i was so in love....i trusted him .h is my best friend...how could he be like this ..i didnt know he will be like this suddenly...he finished me....i just wana slap him hard....he is still waiting for me to marry him...

 

 

 

i went through hell ...now i am almost out of weakness....and im avoiding him too....i wanted to marry him but now i dnt know...now he is texting me and calling me.....the problem is he is our family friend so he keep on coming...and you know its not my fault i misjudged him...u know why because my whole family and my brothers .whose in good relation with him ,always said to me he is a good man...my parents love him...we all know him and his family for like 20 years u can say....i was 7 when he used to visit our house.....you know just like my family i didnt know he was not stable or whatever...as he was always very caring and harmless.....see how come my fault....if i told my family about him now...i dnt now what they will do....just like my family trusts him like hell i did too....i cnt believe what happened.......

 

well the current situation....he kept on saying he is going through the pain as he hurted me....which he never wanted to.....he says he cant sleep at night...cnt eat...and he wants to see me happy....three days before he visited us and he is so weak by health i mean....like a dead person...he says its because he is in pain because i am...and he torture himself daily and yell at himself for what he has done to me.....he says he loves me and cant live without me and he says i want to see you smile again....but im not responding that much

 

he kept on saying he became possessive nothing else.and he never wanted to hurt me...and he proposed me today too...and i didnt respond and he said he will wait...and he also said all i want is your happiness if you want to leave me you can..but he will cry for sure because he loves me more than anything in this world thats what he said..he says you can punish me however you like ..n if you want to push me off the cliff you can ..just be happy...if killing me makes you happy then you should do it because i deserve it....i said i need a space from you and he said ill do whatever you like but ill tell you i cnt live without you but ill do it for your wish...... one more thing he even told his family that i am the girl he wishes to marry...his sister told me ...