Js2493 Posted April 5, 2014 Posted April 5, 2014 Hey everybody. I've posted the full story before, but here's some background. When we met, I was 19 and she was 17. It was the first real relationship either one of us were ever in. Things were great for about the first year or so out of our 2 year relationship and then things started to get rocky. We would ended up fighting about small, stupid things and it would escalate into a full blown argument. Any time something was wrong between us, it was my fault. She wanted to love me for the person she could make me, not who I was. She would constantly expect me to change things about myself. I understand that you have to change and compromise to an extent, but this was only occurring on my end and a lot of the things she was asking, I couldn't do. A lot of people would have cut it off then and there, but I was blinded by what I thought was love. I spent the second year of our relationship basically trying to change myself into something I'm not just to make her happy. Eventually, the day came when she said she had enough and that "I wont ever be good enough for her." We attend the same university. I had actually decided to come back to school partially because of her although I did it to better myself also. I do see her a good bit, but I've changed up my routine as much as possible to avoid contact with her. We've been NC for about 6-7 days and the last time I talked to her was only to return her belongings. Today I was walking back from class when I saw her, and I felt something I had never felt towards her before. I felt anger and betrayal. And as cruel as this may sound, I felt myself crack a smile. I was happy that I could finally see her for what she was. Instead of the constant feelings of wanting her back, missing her, and feeling sorry for myself, something new crossed my mind. I don't need anybody who doesn't need me. By no means am I saying I'm over her or that it's easy now, but it's definitely a step down the path of healing and that's the way you have to look at it. You just have to keep putting one foot in front of the other and keep your head held high. It's not going to be easy. In fact, it may be one the hardest things you've ever had to do. But no matter how much you want to give up, don't, because one day you'll find that person who makes you understand why it never worked out with anyone else. Thanks to all who post on here because your advice has played a huge role in getting me to this point! 2
Strength in Healing Posted April 5, 2014 Posted April 5, 2014 Good brother, that is a step in the right direction. That girl will never be happy.
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